Tell the neighbors I said bye

Chapter 7: Avery- Past 2 months before

It's been a month since Timothy, raped me. All month the only thing I could think about was how much I screwed up. How awful I was. I didn't want to worry Xander, so I put on an act. I always was a good actress. I put on a little act for my brother.

I spent a lot of time at the barn lately, riding Lightning. It gave me time to think. It gave me time to relax and clear my head as well.

At this point, the only thing that I know for sure, is that I've managed to break myself.

I'm sitting at my desk listening some music. The music that usually makes me feel better, Ms.Atomic Bomb and Mr.Brightside by the killers, Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Ray. That music only made me think more about my options. I had already reached out to a person that I knew, that could get me something to help take the edge off. I, had successfully gotten myself high on weed. But when it was wearing off I could feel the pain full on again. But it was the temporary escape that felt good.

I had this best friend growing up. We were very similar, in all meanings of the word. We looked alike. We acted alike. Hell. We were practically identical twins. But now... I'm too embarrassed to see even her face. I feel so alone. I feel the weight of the world crushing me. I feel like I've taken all the problems on my plate.

I feel like my head is going to explode. Like I'm a grenade and destroy everything in my path. Because that is what do. I ruined the lives of many innocent kids, when I was young. I never really understood the damage that I had done... that is until what happened with Timothy....

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