Peter's POV
"Peter, why did u wince" oh shit "ummm....well I pulled a muscle while out on patrol" I winced at the terrible lie. "Really?" "Yes, Bucky please I just wanna write this letter to dad and go to bed I don't wanna fight with you" please believe it please believe it "fine but we are going to talk about this in the morning" "ok thank you" Bucky crawled into bed besides me and laid down. I set the writing board down gently on my sore legs and began a new letter.
"Hey dad, um today may died, but I don't think I'm going to write her letters we had a different sort of connection her and I. I think she can just ready my thoughts you know? You and I on the other hand, we were close but not as close as I wish we could have been, I wish I didn't get jealous when Harley came over, I wish I could move on enough to respect your decision, but I can't, and I don't think I will. It should have been me, you had a family and a kid, I am just good for nothing Peter Parker, the dumb kid who lost everything and has nothing. Nobody wants peter Parker they just want Spider-Man. May gave me my dad's, ben's, and mom's wedding ring, she told me to give one to Bucky, and my moms to Morgana. And oh god Bucky he and Nat are the only ones who actually care about me, but they'd get over it right? Bucky deserves someone better then me, and aunt Tasha doesn't deserve to get stuck with my issues. Maybe, maybe if I just died I would finally be happy, anyway I know I normally say today has been ok, but it really hasn't, at least it'll be my last.
Love you dad I'll see you soon,
Peter"
Peters POV still
I folded the letter and stuck it back in the envelope. Looking down I saw Bucky sleeping soundly, he really was beautiful I hope I don't hurt him to much when I'm gone, I don't deserve to be missed.
Tasha' POv
Peter didn't know I set up a tool that let me ready whatever note he had in his hands when he came down stairs, so when he walked into the living room and I read his note I was very worried. Before I could do anything he said "bye Nat I'm going to go give dad another note" and he was gone. I decided to wait for him to come back to talk to him. Maybe if I didn't I could have stopped him, maybe if I had seen the signs earlier he would still be here.
Peters POV
I left quickly and quietly, only telling Nat where I was going. I made it sound like I was coming back but I wasn't. I stood at dad's grave sight for 30 minutes before putting the note down and swinging up to a tall building. Sitting there with my legs dangling I wrote one last letter.
"Hey Bucky, Nat, and Morgy (princess)
I just wanted to start with I'm sorry. I'm sorry if what I'm a bout to do hurts you, I don't deserve to be missed. Bucky first, Bucky I love you so much, your my best friend and the love of my life. Here is my dads and my uncles wedding bands, one of them is for you, but maybe wear both of them to remember me? In another world maybe we have the chance to have a family and get married, and grow old together. Not this world though, everyone I'm close to dies, so maybe if I die it will end that circle. I love you, take care of the rest of the team for me please I'll see you when u join us. Please you one thing for me? Move on find someone knew, someone who isn't broken. Next Auntie Nat, you are actually mom to me. When I think about you the first thing I see is mum, I really hope you and Bucky can move on, have a good life, see Clint and his kids every now and then, and take care of pep and our little princess. I'm really sorry about doing this to you but I can't take it anymore, no one want me as peter only Spider-Man. And to my little princess Morgan, the really shinny ring with the big ol' diamond in the middle Is for you, it was my moms wedding ring, keep It safe, May wanted me to tell you she loved you very much and is sorry she left so soon. I'm sorry to, you don't deserve any of this, you deserved to have your dad with you for forever, and your brother to not be broken, you deserve a really really good life. I know you can do anything you put your amazing mind to, I love you 3000 morgy. To all three of you, this is not you fault, it's my choice, if you want you can write letters to me and I'll read them, you won't know but I will.
I love you all so so so much, but I can't do it anymore,
Peter Parker your friendly neighborhood Spider-Man"
Satisfied I put the note in my suit and folded it up, setting it aside I put I little sticky note on my suit with the webshoters that said "for whoever chooses to give their entire life to help the city of queens and the world, be safe -Peter Parker"
Then I stepped up to the edge and leaned forward, the ground sprinted towards me. I shut my eyes tight and let death envelope me.
