My Reflection || KNJ ✔

Kim Seong and Repentance

"Hating never harms the one you hate. Nor does forgiving benefits the one to be forgiven.
Your emotions shall harm or benefit no one, but thyself."

Ha Neul, after another failed attempt to meet her dad, returned home tired. Eyes looked sleep deprived and swollen from tears and grief. Kim Seong had special requests to never allow her of any meets.

Getting off from the car parked right in front of her big house as she approached the gate, a middle aged lady voice distracted her to the source on her right.

??? : Ha Neul-ah.

She pratically freezed the moment, she was cued to the familiarity of the face, as the lady advanced towards her.

HA NEUL : (-eyes wide-) Mom-.. Ah, Sorry, Mrs. Park, is it now?

With a wistful smile, her mother kept staring at her for a moment. It had been eighteen years that she was seeing her daughter again, before her eyes. She was completely ecstatic.

However, all Ha Neul could feel was anger and never forgiven resent for her mother. Hence, she stood with grudge and a bitter expression.

HA NEUL : (-rudely-) What brings you here? Isn't this a place you abandoned to never return?

Mrs. PARK : (-not minding her words-) Ha Neul-ah, you have grown up so pretty. (-smiles-)

HA NEUL : I take up my dad. Of course, I have pretty features.

Mrs. PARK : (-light chuckles-) Right. You do. So beautiful!

HA NEUL : (-coldly-) Why are you here?

Mrs. PARK : I watched the news about your Dad. So, I came to see if you are alright.

HA NEUL : Alright? (-dry chuckle-) All these years, you haven't once called to ask if I was doing well. Now, you expect me to believe that?

Mrs. PARK : Ha Neul-ah! Mom is sorry to you. To your Dad. Will always be. But, she never stopped caring for you.

Ha Neul gulped down a tear, looking elsewhere.

HA NEUL : (-cracking voice-) Did you even love me?

Mrs. PARK : Of course, I did. I still do, so much, baby.

Mrs. Park advanced a step towards her as she ended her remark. But, Ha Neul held tight on her resent and took a step back.

HA NEUL : (-fighting her tears-) Then, why did you leave me? Why did you leave Dad? He loved you so much.

Mrs.Park stared into her daughter's tears filled gaze at her. There was hate, there was fury but there was also longing, a longing for her mother.

Mrs. PARK : (-heavy heart-) I couldn't love him. I was not happy in our marriage. And when I had you, I was happy as a mother to have an angel like daughter. But, I was still unhappy as a wife.

HA NEUL : (-sniffs-) So, Mr.Park gave you that happiness?

Mrs. PARK : Maybe. But, that's not where it started. I shouldn't have agreed to marry your dad just on the fact that he loved me. I thought, I would eventually fall for him. But, it never happened. Infact, I got into self guilt. I was receiving so much from him, but could return nothing.

They were words Ha Neul received as a daughter. As if a counseling to get over her crush on Namjoon, she obediently indulged into listening to the mother she never had.