My feet tapped against as I looked out the window of the tower. My mind tried to think of anything besides her, but it was so hard. I was worried about her, but I was also worried about sleeping in this tower. Like some of these people have death wishes upon me, so getting good sleep has been kind of hard.
It was been two days since I first saw the rest of the Avengers. Wanda is starting to cave into me, seeing how bad I want to get (y/n) back. Steve on the other hand, just isn't Steve. He was leaving every single day to do a mission, then come back with a new mistress. I don't know if he is doing this to make me mad or he is just trying to comfort himself.
"Can't sleep?" I hear.
I jerk back, slightly freightned to hear someone also awake this late. I turn to see Natasha surprisingly.
"Yeah. Seems like you have the same idea as me." I laugh.
She sits down next to me, worried written across her face as she looks at me, "Something is wrong."
"What? Whats happening?"
"Barnes, its you. You aren't eating and you aren't sleeping. You are the only one not looking after himself. We are all worried, but it seems like you are taking it out on yourself."
"Well I should, I am the reason she is there."
"No Barnes. The winter soldier is the reason she is there. You are James Barnes."
We sat in silence as I thought about what she said, "Natasha?"
She humms in response as she continues to look outside.
"I am afraid on what might happen once she comes back home."
"What do you mean by that?"
"When I was the soldier I raped her, making her turn into a soldier like me. I don't know what is going to happen when we see each other again."
"You aren't thinking about raping her again, okay?"
"Obviosly."
"All I think and hope for right now is that she is okay, that she is ready to come back home."
"Me too."
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Your POV
I watch from the floor as two guards stand over me, batons in their hands. They were talking about some football game, not noticing their task at hand right now. Thankfully. The soldier in me wasn't happy, she was angry that the winter soldier left. She is mad that we have to suffer for his actions.
"Hey!" We hear.
I look passed the guards to see another guard, his finger pointed at us. "What are you guys doing? Get to work! You can't get much done talking."
"Yes boss." the one on the right says.
The two in front of me turn to me, their grip on the batons tightening as they get ready. I know I can't fight back, only because the consequences will get worse. So I just let them do what they had to do, even if it means they get to put their dirty hands on me.
Although the soldier hated this, I had to try and push her away. I needed to be in control of my body for a bit.
-time skip-
As the guards picked up their uniforms off the floor I came up with the greatest idea ever. One thing that I could do to get away from all the sexual assault, the beatings, and the soldier inside me. I will have to be careful though, it could be the riskiest thing I have ever done.
The guards left me alone, letting me get dressed in peace. Sure my clothes consisted of a tanktop on shorts, basically meaning nothing. I crawl into the corner of my room, wrapping my arms around my legs as I attempt to rock myself to sleep.
I miss the soldier. He sometimes kept me company which was nice, he was the nicest person here. When I escape from here I will search for him, from the highest to lowest places. He is going to be the reason that I escape from this stupid place.
The doors to my room open again, making me nervous. They should leave me alone for the night, this is odd.
"Get up. You are having a exam." The guard commands.
The soldier in me quickly takes charge as the guard takes me out of my room.
