cynosure {h.s}

five

harry's pov

What the fuck am I talking about? Girls don't wear my clothes; I don't let girls wear my clothes. Why was I picturing her in my clothes? She was just so innocent, I wanted to fuck it straight out of her. I know she isn't that innocent deep down but she's just not going to give it to me.

The way she reacted when I asked to fuck her, I'd never seen anybody react like that and I felt so bad. I didn't think it would be a big deal. She's a fresher, freshers always want to get laid right? Can't say it did much for my ego, I've never been rejected before, but something tells me it wasn't my looks, I think she's a virgin.

She didn't get the joke I made at the end either. I meant lessons in sex not poetry, she already has extras of those as well. I'm just fascinated by her, everything about her. As much as I want her, I don't want to hurt her. She's just too pure for that.

I pack up my things and head back to my flat. On the way back I decided that I'm going out tonight. I'm kind of horny so I'll bring a girl back here, shag her and kick her out before she can fall asleep. I'll buy her an uber so she gets home safe but she isn't sleeping here. If girls fall asleep in the bed, they think they can stay as long as they like and that you're going to ask them on a date. No. I don't date, romance isn't for me.

"There he is the man of the hour, Mister Styles!" My friend Jamie yelled from the other side of the pub I just walked into. I shake my head and laugh to myself as I make my way over to them. I sit between Nancy and Sean and pick up the full pint which I presume is mine, oh well, it is now. I down at least half of it before putting it on the table.

"Easy tiger." Nancy laughs. I roll my eyes and drink the other half. "Seriously Harry, there's no race, you've got time to get hammered." She reminds me. I want to get drunk, fast. Shots, shots sound really fucking good right now. I just need to remind myself who I am, I don't do relationships, I fuck a girl and then she leaves. Wish Auden would want to fuck me. I think back to earlier. Can she report me for touching her like that? Fuck, no one has ever freaked out when I've done that before. But did it count as sexual assault? Fuck.

I snap out of my thoughts and tell my friends my plans for tonight. Sometimes Nancy likes to piss around and come up to me when I'm flirting with a girl and she'll say she's my girlfriend. I've had a fair share of drinks thrown in my face after Nanc pulls that little stunt.
"I'm serious Nancy, pull one of those girlfriend stunts tonight and me and you are going to fall out." I tell her only half serious. "Right I'm going to get us some shots." I say and make my way over to the bar.

I down the last shot of vodka. I feel the heat of it make its way down my throat. I savour the feeling for a second. It's nice. The warmth spreads across my chest like wild fire. I like feeling something internally every now and then. Vodka is a temporary feeling, but nice all the same. 

By the time midnight rolled around I was definitely not sober. We piled into a taxi and headed to a club of Nancy's choice. We got passed security and were greeted by half naked women dancing on top of the bar.
"You're welcome!" She shouted to me.

"Please! You chose this place for yourself!" I laughed

"For both of us darling Harry, come on let's find us both some single ladies to take home." She hooked arms with me and found a booth for all of us to sit at. Sean went and got us a final round of drinks and shots to have before I wandered off and found myself a shag.

I could hear my friends talking around me but I didn't really engage, my mind just kept going back to Auden, she intrigued me and I actually felt really bad for making her so uncomfortable. I'm not shocked she's a virgin but her reaction was so different to anything I'd ever seen. It was like she'd never heard of sex before. It only reminded me of how innocent she really must be and that made me want her even more.

I swallow the last of my tequila and shake Auden out of my mind. "I'm going to find a girl, have a good night guys." I wished my friends well then set off to the dance floor. I pulled at my lip and scouted round until I found a small group of girls, I locked eyes with one and watched her for a minute. She carried on dancing and I was very much enjoying the show. Slowly, I made my way over to her and began moving with her. Leaning closer to her ear I kissed underneath it.
"What's your name darling?" I asked, moving my hips in sync with hers.

"Ella." She answered and moved hair over her shoulder to give me better access.

I began to suck underneath her ear before making my way to her mouth and kissing her deeply. I slipped my tongue into her mouth and pushed her against the wall to deepen the kiss. She moaned into my mouth which made me smirk against hers.
"Want to come back to mine." I asked her and she nodded eagerly.

I took her hand and lead her out the club, into a taxi. I quickly gave the driver my address as Ella climbed on top of me and started making out with me again. She was good at this; she was grinding her hips against me the whole ride home. If I didn't have so much self-control, I probably would've came just from that. She seemed experienced, hopefully she's just had a breakup and this is pay back sex. I can live with that, those girls never come back which is exactly what I want. The taxi comes to a holt and I throw some money into the dish before kissing Ella all the way up to my flat.

I slammed my flat door and started pulling her clothes off as she did the same to mine. She pulled my jeans and boxers down in one and stayed on her knees. I was getting more than I expected here but I wasn't going to complain. She took me all into her mouth and deep throat me straight away. I sucked in a sharp breath and leant against my kitchen counter. This was good this was exactly what I needed so I would stop thinking about Auden. Fuck... Auden. She just will not leave my mind. I close my eyes and imagine it's her.

Why is she so intoxicating? What about her is so special that after knowing her for a day she can't leave my mind. Maybe because she was hot, really really fucking hot and she rejected me. I think that's what it is. It must be that. That's never happened before so it's stuck in my head.

I remember that I'm being sucked off and pull Ella to her feet before making out with her again until we reach my bedroom. I rip off her underwear quickly. I am so turned on and I just need to fuck this girl hard and fast. She crawls onto my bed and lays on her stomach before tucking her knees in. Okay, doggy, I like it, easy, gets the job done, we don't have to kiss during the sex. Ladies always think there's more romance if you kiss them during sex. I put and condom on before pushing into Ella.

She lets out a high-pitched moan and starts moving her hips in circles. I move at a steady pace at first before picking up my speed. She was really fucking wet, that boosted my ego, I'm glad she finds me this attractive. I go harder which makes her moan more. She doesn't even know my name. I like that, even less attachment. I throw my head back in pleasure as I squeeze both of her ass cheeks and cause her to let out a loud moan and arch her back further.

"So good. So fucking good." She utters out through her moans, I'm glad my sex game is this good, I've had enough experience. I can feel myself getting close to the edge. I hold her hips and make my thrusts quicker and harder. I let the orgasm take over body. I close my eyes and try to catch my breath. I don't even know if she orgasmed but I don't care. I take the condom off and start collecting her clothes from around my flat.

I come back to my room seeing she's still on my bed, "Here Ella, I've ordered you an uber, it's 3 minutes away." She looks at me shocked like I've just killed her brother or something so I stare back at her with a blank expression on my face and hold her clothes out. She soon gets the message and quickly pulls her clothes on. I put on a pair of joggers and tie my hair up.

"I can walk you down if you need me to." I tell her.

She shakes her head, "No, I remember how to get out, thanks."

And with that she leaves, I stretch and lay in my bed. Auden fills my mind again. I wish I could shake it. I wonder if she's ever felt like she's been in love. I scoff at myself, the thought of romance and love is so funny to me. What's the point in it when you can just shag someone and then they leave. No emotions, no sticking to the same person, you get more pleasure I reckon because you can have sex whenever you want, and it's with a different person so its new every time. Romance is such a stupid thing.