A little and her daddy

My new daddy

I missed that nice sweet dream but back to reality and boy did it suck! I was groggy waking up but I was by myself. I dragged myself out of bed and started to get ready for the day. I knew I felt I had to talk to mom and get things cleared up about last night. make things right. I hated being big, I was feeling smol today and that's all I wanted to be, was smol. i decided to wear a pastel long sleeve shirt with shortalls over it and knee highs, black with white stripes at the top. I felt very cute and put my hair in curly pigtails.

i looked over myself in the mirror an felt very smol. it's the most I could do until I got done being big for the day. i kissed my stuffies and patted their heads and grabbed my fluffy unicorn and took her with me today. i made my way downstairs and went to greet my small little family, when i get downstairs, mom and dad and lilly are sitting on the couch and i see lilly crying but a man and a women are sitting on the other couch across from them.

"What's going on?" i look around and see the two people sitting on the couch looking at me with sorrowful looks.

"Honey come here." mom says to me and i walk over to her and she takes my hand.

"Did i do something wrong?" i choke out trying not to cry.

"No sweetie, nothing wrong at all, these nice people are here to help you out, unfortunately we have to move out of state, Lilly's dad got a new job and we tried to file to have you move with us, but because you're not adopted and we didn't fill out the write paperwork, we aren't able to take you, i tried to fight it, but the legal system has custody over you." she explains.

"What do you mean?" I fight to hold back the tears. "I can't move with you?"

"No sweetie. i wish we could take you with us."

after they explained it all and told me to start packing, i was leaving today. no noticed or anything, i didn't know what to do, i had to leave for a while and get some air. i went to the local park and found myself on the swings. i kept wiping my eyes as i couldn't stop crying, i didn't know if i would ever get to see lilly ever again. i didn't want to go into foster care. i refused to go. i heard nothing but horrible stories. i resorted to the only idea i had in mind. i called Ian.

the phone kept ringing, i was about to hang up and then i finally heard his honey voice.

"Hello, babygirl, are you okay?" he asks concerned suddenly.

"N-No!" i break out into sobs and just start telling him the whole story.

"Babygirl, slow down, breathe for me." he says trying to sooth me but it wasn't helping. i kept crying.

"I'm sorry." i really try to slow down and calm down for him.

"It's okay baby, where are you, I'm coming to get you." he tells me. i tell him where i'm at and he tells me okay and to stay there i tell him i will and hang up.

not to much longer i see his car pull up and he gets out and comes and finds me, i'm still on the swings, but when he walks up i jump up and run into his arms, sobbing all over again. ugh i was such a crybaby. this was ridiculous.

"Oh baby, look at me sweetheart." he sooths as he pulls me away, drying my tears.

"I can't believe this is happening, i feel like my whole world is being ripped apart. i don't know what to do anymore." i say in between choppy breathing.

he looks away as he's silent for a while. i watch him slightly worried I've just annoyed him and now he's going to run off, it's not his problem. it's mine and i'm just going to have to deal with it for the time being. i can do this, i can be a big girl... i feel my bottom lip quiver as i try to hold back more tears.