Curse Of Love

|¦ Chapter 1 ¦|

Shivaay

For the twenty time in the last half an hour, he changed his position in his bed.
He kept turning on his sides again and again. At last he gave up like everynight and sat on the bed with crossed legs sighing and rubbing his face.

5 YEARS. 5 damn years and he is still unable to sleep peacefuly without thinking about her.
Everytime he closed his eyes trying to get some sleep, he saw her face remembering all their memories like it happened yesterday.

He closed his eyes tightly at that feeling his heart aching. No, he can't think about her, he shouldn't espacilly after what she did to him, to them.

He has to do something to stop his thoughts immediatly. His heart mocked him at that knowing very well his unability to do that but he ignored it searching something, anything in his room to distract his thoughts.

Not finding anything making him forget her just for a while or rather finding everything in his room has something related to her, he huffed in frustration massaging his forehead.

He turned to his left grabbing his phone from the side table.
2:15 AM and he is still awake, maybe he could just do somework and relax his brain a bit from his painful past. After all his work is the only solace for him and that to for a couple of hours.

He kept himself engrossed in his cabin doing the maximum of work till late just to avoid thinking about her and it works, but only for sometime and then it came back all over again espacilly in the night.
Maybe because it was their favorite time and the only time they had for each other and to be themself, just Shivaay and just Annika like she used to say.

No, not again. He can't undrestand How his thoughts always end up with her. She is married now for god sake.

He groaned being fed up with himself more than her now.

He is tired, really very tired from her and her thoughts. He gave up for god knows how many times in this night and let her thoughts run in his head.

He could see all their moments together running in front of his eyes.

He sighed getting up from the bed and went to the balcony. He looked at the moon and remembered their moment under this same moon but in other conditions.

*****

He was standing in the balcony after taking a shower looking at the moon. His hair was still wet. Suddenly, He felt her hands on his head drying his hair with a towel saying :
'' How many time did i tell you to not stand here without drying your hair. You catch cold easily and i don't like seeing you sick. ''
He smiled at her concern and care, it's the most thing he loves in her. Her care for others is something else.
He turned to face her grabbing her waist with his hands cagging her. She pouted still drying his hair. He chukled a little kissing her pout and said:
'' Maybe i want to get sick so i can get you all for myself for 3 days at least''
He winked at her making her hit him on the shoulder.
''As if i don't spend time with you''
''You do but only in the weekands and holidays and it's not enough anymore ''
Saying that he tighed his hold on her putting his forehead on hers. She kept the towel aside and circled her hands around his neck lifting herself a little initialing a kiss. They kissed each other expressing their longing for each other and parted away only to breath.
''By the way, look who is talking about catching cold. The one who has only my shirt on her body''.
She glared at him saying:
'' First, i'm not weak like you, He nodded at that mouthing 'of course', Second, it's your shirt than it gives me warm, your warm and third, She smiled widely saying this, i'm in your arms then i will never feel cold. ''
His heart skip a beat listening that and he leaned kissing her harder.
She felt her body heat increasing and looking at his eyes she know the same is happening with him. So without wasting anytime, he lifted her making her wrap her legs around him and took her to the bed where they were two hours ago but what could they do ? They can't get enough from each other.
They made love for whole night with the moon looking at them with shy from the window and they drifted to a deep and peaceful sleep in each other arms.

*****

Coming back to present, his fingers went automatically to his lips.

He still can feel her lips on his and the proximity they created together which she destroyed alone making him pay for it with her till now.

His eyes moisted and his tears were going to fall but he stoped it. Afterall how can he cry for her memories when he didn't cry when she left him.

He is the SHIVAAY SINGH OBEROI, He made people cry and doesn't cry for anyone especially that woman.

His heart mocked him again knowing the real reason behind him not crying for her. FEAR.

He fears that after crying on her he will really forget her with the only thing he had with him from her, their memories that kept him alive. Don't they say that when you cry your heart out on something you will forget it by time ? And that's exactly what he fears.

However, he kept lieing to himself that he has to forget her and move on. He was fed up living like a robot. Everyday he got up early to go to the office and returned late. He did this just to avoid his family.

He couldn't see the guilt in his sister eyes because she was the one who brought Annika to his life. He couldn't see the sympathy in his brothers and dadi eyes and hate and anger in his parents eyes specially his mother.
She hurted them exactly like She hurted him. She was the first one who came from the outside and became a part of them knowing their secrets and everything about them and then betrayed them mercilessly, which made them unable to trust any outsider again without knowing him very well.

All these are enough for him to forget her but he couldn't 'You don' t want to' his heart screamed at him reminding him about that fear inside him.
He fears that his heartbeats will stop if he forget her. 'Shut up' his mind told him this time, and he sighed heavily knowing the war between his heart and mind had begin again.

After her, this is how his life had became, a conflict between heart and mind, past and present. He was living like this for 5 years now and he has no idea for how more it will continues. Maybe forever after closing his heart for love and agreed to live in this curse.