Curse Of Love

|¦ Chapter 2 ¦|

Annika

Totally opposite to Shivaay, Annika still can easily sleep the moment she hit the bed. She still sleep like a log like he used to say, but everynight she wake up in horror after seeing a nightmare, and kept looking at the ceiling unable to go back to sleep and spend the rest of the night crying and staring at his photo.

The same happened tonight. Annika saw the same nightmare again and she was on her bed panting heavily and having a long breaths to calm herself.

These nightmares are after her since forever now, they are a part of her life. She was seeing them from the childhood but she was able to handle them espacilly with him beside her.

He was her solace from them. All she had to do was hugging him tightly resting her head on his chest listening to his heartbeats and the sleep will automaticaly came.
But she can't do that anymore, could she ? She left him and turned her back to him and to her life as well.

She was just breathing not living after leaving him, and the nightmares increased and became more and more worse.

She looked at the mirror in front of her bed and she couldn't recognize herself.

Long gone that naughty, happy girl who doesn't know how to give up and kept smiling and laughing all the time despite whatever difficulties the life throw at her.

How she wished to go back to that time and espacilly to him. She used to be a big fan of life but now she wished death every second.

She lifted her knees putting her head between them and cried her heart out like she do everynight until she got tired and her eyes became swollen and red from crying.

She lied on her bed again resting her head on her pillow waiting for mercy but she know very well that sleep was over for tonight.

She closed her eyes letting some more tears roll on her cheeks and wetting her pillow more.

Her pillow was the only one who witness her miserable life everynight and know all the secrets inside her, the secrets that she knows will kill her someday.

She gave up on sleep that night and got up going to the balcony and shivered feeling the cold air.

Smiling a little, she remembered Shivaay scolding her everytime she left the bed after seeing a nightmare without waking him and holding him.

*****

She woke up from her sleep in fear and drenched in sweat. She saw the same nightmare again, the same woman who killed her mother and burned her in that dark place in front of her eyes. She became an orphan without knowing anything about her past just because of that woman.
Looking at Shivaay, she find him sleeping in peace, so without disturbing him she put on a shirt, his shirt of course, and went to the balcony in her room shivering a little.
She kept staring at the moon thinking about her past.
'' You saw the same nightmare again, right ? ''
She turned to him in jerk being surprised :
'' What are you doing here ? You should be in bed. ''
Taking her hands in his, he said :
'' I can ask you the same but i already know the answer. It happened again, right ? ''
She nodded resting her head on his chest circling her hands around him. He pulled her more toward him kissing her hair.
'' I'm not saying anything for now because you are still disturbed but this doesn't mean that i'm not angry on you. How many time i told you to not leave me when you saw them, huh ? ''
She nuzzled more into him saying :
'' I'm sorry. You was in deep sleep and tired already so i didn't want to disturb you more. ''
He pushed her a little holding her head between his hands.
'' Really ? You thought that you will disturb me ? Annika if i really was annoyed by your so called disturbation, i wouldn't came to sleep with you in your house. '' He paused looking at her eyes and said :
'' but if you don't trust me enough to share your sorrow with me, then it's an... ''. She didn't let him complet and kissed him slowly calming him a bit.
'' You know it's nothing like that. I told you that i don't want my past to have any shadow on our relation that's it, it's a darkness that i don't want you to see ever. ''
'' But i want to Annika, maybe then it will not be a darkness anymore. I want you to hold me instead of pushing me from it all the time, maybe then you wouldn't be shivering here alone. ''
'' And this exactly what i am doing, holding you to stay strong. Do you think i would be here tolking to you normally if i wasn't holding you. Believe me i would be crying in a corner with many horrible thoughts in my mind which will kill me someday. I would be thinking to give up and... ''. She bursted in sobs and he hugged her immediatly southing her.
'' You are my last and only hope, Shivaay, please never leave me. ''
He tighed the hug kissing her head and caressing her hair mouthing 'never'.
After sometime, when he felt her calmed a bit but still shivering from the happening and the cold air, he said :
'' Ok, that's enough for tonight. Both of us are tired now and we have to relax and sleep. Come on let's go. ''
He took her to the bed and pampered her to sleep.
She slept leaving him awake all the night fearing her to slip in that state again which he witnessed in their first days of dating. He still can feel his hair stand from that terrible scene which he couldn't forget.

*****

She cried remembering his care. She missed him so much. No one cared about her like him. She feel save only in his arms. She was alone before him and lonely after him. She even missed their initial days when they dislike and get on nerves of each other.

She lifted her head looking at the moon. It was lonely in the sky without any star around it exactly like her, without anyone.

He used to tell her that she is the moon of his life and she always told him that he and his family are the stars that give company to the moon to keep him welling to shine.

But they are not with her anymore, they left her or better say she pushed them away.

She missed Omru. Omkara, her soulfriend and her sensible best friend to whom She runs for an advice. He always listen to her without any jugement. She loved his poetry despit not undrestand it clearly.

She missed Rudra, her crybaby, her partner in crime who made her smile and laugh at any situation.

And how can she forget Dadi who carresed her hair everytime she narrate a story to her and made her feel the love of mother which she lost from childhood.

She also missed working with Shakti uncle and Jhanvi aunty and sharing ideas with them.

But she missed her friendship with Priyanka the most. She was the first one who didn't care about her past and became her true friend and introduced her to the Oberois and made her a part of her family without asking for anything. She was a sister to her more than a best friend.

She missed them a lot, but she will never be able to look at them in eyes after what she did. It's so shameful.

She wondered if they still remember her.

She closed her eyes sighing heavily keeping her hand on her aching heart.

5 YEARS. It had been 5 years since she was living with this ache.

Her life had stoped the day they got separated.

The only good thing that happened in these years is her work. Finally she reached her dream and made her own company of planning events.' Just Imagine' or 'JI' as everyone call it, is one of the best company in London.

Yes, London, she didn't leave only him  but left her country also with her so called husband, Daksh, the devil of her life who blackmailed her to leave Shivaay and be with him. And she was so helpless that she couldn't say no at that time.

She will never forget the look of disappointment and hurt that she saw in Shivaay 's eyes because of her deeds that day.

She appeared before him hand in hand with his friend telling him that they got married, and on top of that she crossed her limits in front of his family and pushed him to the edge of his patience to make him throw her out from his life and he did.

She did it to let him live in peace and stay safe with his family, but little did she know that he is living the same pain.

By her own hands, she pushed both of them into this curse that she is leaving in till now and until her last day.