Autumn and Sunset

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

It's really true that life is full of surprises. Surprises that we never expected to come. Surprises and things you never expected to happen. They say, only time can tell when you will fall in love. When will you meet the person destined for you. When will the two hearts meet to be united with love. When will two people meet who are in love at the right time, the right day, the right meeting place but in an unexpected way.

Maybe, love comes on purpose that you don't even know. Love is like a surprise in human life that is never expected. Like me, I did not expect to be loved, that I could love. One day I just woke up, I feel like there's something an inexplicable feeling inside me. A feeling that is slowly evolving from my heart to my whole being. It never entered my mind that this thing would come into my life.

Bagay na alam kong totoo pero hindi ko pinaniniwalaang mangyayari sa akin. Katulad ng sinabi ko, kontento na ako na binigyan ako ng Poong Maykapal ng pangalawang buhay. Nalampasan ko ang malaking dagok ng aking buhay. I am one of those people who has survived an unusual cancer disease. That is why my only dream is to live and value myself and the people who are important to me.

I am content with the little things that make me happy. I am content with the people who value me and are important to me. I am content with what I have now. I am content with myself. I am content with whatever God's plan to me. I am content with the life God has given me. I am so content that I have nothing more to ask for, but to live in a simple and contented way.

Content, maybe this is the word that people need, the whole world needs. Sometimes there are people who almost get everything but why still not be satisfied. May mga taong nagagawang maging sakim sa kanilang kapwa dahil sa hindi sila nakokontento. We can live in peace, without being aggrieved. Walang pinapakialaman. Walang hinuhusgahan. Walang nilalapastangan. Why can't we just be content? On the otherhand, why don't we just use the word 'love'. Maybe the impact of this word on people is really different.

Like me, it has a different impact on me. I thought it was just a simple word but I was wrong. It is a simple word indeed but it has a big impact especially on people who opposed with it. Hindi ko sinasabing salungat ako sa bagay na ito. Siguro naging salungat lang ang pananaw ko sa salitang ito dahil sa nangyari sa mga magulang ko. Ngunit parang nag-iba ang ihip ng hangin. All I know now is that the word 'content' is gradually being replaced. Yes I am content, especially when it comes to everything whether small or large. Siguro hindi lang ako makokontento kung hindi ko pagbibigyan ang aking puso.

Hindi ako makokontento kong ako mismo hindi ko pagbibigyan ang aking sarili na mag-mahal. Ngayon salungat na ang pananaw ko, parang ayoko na nang salitang 'kontento' gusto ko naman ngayon ay ang salitang 'pagmamahal'. Maybe I can combine them. I will love but in a contented way. A contented love for a contented person like me. I smiled at the thought. I can love the way I want.

I looked at the man currently sleeping soundly on my bed. Thick eyebrows, long eyelashes, sharp nose, chiseled jaw and kissable lips. I laughed at my thoughts. He still holds my hand now, he does not want to let go. Naramdaman kong bigla siyang gumalaw, kasunod ay ang pagmulat ng kaniyang mga mata. Nagkatitigan kaming dalawa. Ako na ang naunang nag-iwas ng tingin. Suddenly I felt his grip on my hand tighten even more, so I suddenly looked at what he did. I looked back at him. His gaze was gentle on me. Because of that stare, I felt a warm hand caress my heart, so maybe it is the reason why inside my chest pounding very hard.

"Thank you for letting me rest. You let me be with you." He said seriously but softly.

"It's fine." I replied.

"Hindi ba magagalit ang boyfriend mo, pagnalaman niyang pagkatapos mo siyang patulugin dito ay may dinala kang ibang lalaki." gumalaw ang kaniyang panga sa kaniyang mga sinabi.