Serene's POV
The Principal called me one time because he heard that my grades are failing but i just shrugged my shoulder as a response and then end his call.
Is it my fault why i became like this? No it's not me, it's that guy who made me like this
I blame him for everything that's happening to my life
I hate him!
Months have passed and today is my 18th birthday
Tss hindi ko pa namalayan na birthday kona pala but I'm not happy instead i feel shit because i remember him againnnnn, the memories we shared in my birthday last year, the gifts he gave and his bullshit confession
Sana pala hindi ko nalang pinaniwalaan ang mga yon kasi ginawa nya lang pala akong tanga
Now i realize that why am i stupid and pathetic before? I can't believe that i chased a man? That's another bullshit but it won't happen again, i won't allow it to happen
"Do you want to have a celebration Princess?" asked my dad and he smiled sweetly, I'm glad that he recovered after months in staying here but at the same time I'm sad because he can't walk anymore without the crutch
"No dad it's okay i will just celebrate it with my friends" i also smiled, actually sya lang ang matino kong kinakausap sa bahay
"But its your debut i want you to have a celebration kahit na family dinner lang? Please Princess pagbigyan mona ang pilay mong daddy"
"Fine but please stop saying that"
I hate it when he keeps on telling na pilay sya dahil mas lalo kong sinisisi yun
"Yey thanks ija go home early tonight, kay? Don't forget our dinner
I love you and Happy Birthday again my little princess"
"Dad I'm a lady now so stop calling me little princess" busangot kong sabi
"But you will always be my baby and little princess"
"Okay okay whatever, bye Dad" i kissed his cheeks and immediately leave kasi nakita ko nang bumababa si mommy sa hagdan
After school deretso agad kami sa house nila Sheena to celebrate, we are having a house and pool party kaya sakto at wala ang parents nya
We drink and dance like there's no tomorrow but
I was shocked when someone drag me in a dark room, who the hell is this?
"Hey let go of me or else i will shout" banta ko sa kung sino man itong bwisit nato
"Ahhh Help! Help me- he covered my mouth with his hands
"Shhh"
"Who are you jerk?" i asked when he finally remove his hand
"Happy Birthday" he whispered to my ears and then he kissed me in my lips it's just a smack but what the hell?
This jerk stranger stole my first fcking kiss
But i stilled when i smell his familiar scent and also the beating of my heart is very familiar, wait is he..
I open my eyes when i heard the closing door, fck tatakasan nya ako?
Dali dali akong lumabas pero wala na akong nakita sa corridor
"Hey Maria did you saw the guy who drag me awhile ago?" i asked my friend when i saw her still dancing
"What? Meron ba? Hahaha I'm sorry"
Tss lasing na tong babaeng to
Nagtanong tanong pa ako kung kani kanino pero wala daw nakakita
Bwisit sino ka ba talaga? Impossible namang sya kasi nasa pinas yon at kung pupuntahan naman nya ako dito, for what? Ughhh ayoko na mag isip
I drink lukewarm water haysst baka naman nantritrip lang yun
Nagpaalam nako sa mga kaibigan ko at umuwi na para sa family dinner
After the dinner umakyat ako agad sa kwarto at nagmuni muni
Bwisit naiiyak na naman ako dahil naalala ko sya, ginulo ko ang buhok ko at nag pa ikot ikot sa kama pero nasa utak ko pa rin sya nang hindi ko na nakayanan pumunta nako sa kusina para sana maghanap ng beer or kahit ano to calm my nerves
Nagkakalkal nako sa ref ng biglang may nagsalita sa likod
"Shit what the fu- nanlaki ang mata ko nang makita ko si mommy
"-fudge"
"Serene let's talk" she seriously said
My face become emotionless and nod
"What is it mom?"
"I'm sorry if i said something bad to you or I've done something wrong anak ginagawa ko lang to para sayo, i just want the best for you"
I just remain silent at what she said but deep inside i want to hug her and tell her it's okay because i don't wanna see her sad
"Please stop rebelling sweety, nasasaktan ako pag nakikita kitang umuuwing lasing at misan naririnig ko pang umiiyak ka sa kwarto mo gabi gabi"
"I'm sorry mom it's not my intention to hurt you, it's just that nasasaktan lang ako mommy. Ang sakit bakit ganto ayoko nang gantong pakiramdam, p-pano po ba ito alisin? Itong sakit dito, pano po ba makalimot " turo ko sa puso ko, hindi ko na napigilang humagulgol habang nakikiusap kay mommy, pati sya napapaiyak na din
"I'm sorry princess if i can't stop your pain, shhh just cry it all out i will listen"
"Mom i give my best to let him stay kasi mahal ko sya at ayokong mawala sya, nagpakababa ako para sa kanya pero pinagtabuyan lang nya ako, ang sakit sakit lang na lahat ng pangako nyang pinanghahawakan ko sinira nya. I tried to understand him but he's persistent to remove me from his life"
"*sob* Kasi kasama na nya yung totoong mahal nya, ginamit nya lang ako pero okay lang sakin yon hahaha, see mommy? I'm so pathetic, i can't believe myself "
Bakit kasi ako ganto magmahal? Bakit ang hina hina ko
After a couple of minutes, mahimasmasan na ako and i look at my mom and smiled, ngayon nalang ata ako nakangiti ng totoo
"Thanks mom and yeah i won't rebel again, I'm so sorry for what I've done i know it's my fault but i promise mom gagalingan ko na sa school at ipapasa ko lahat"
"It's okay sweety and i want you to follow what you want, pinapayagan kana namin na mag Doctor"
Nagulat ako sa sinabi nya but what the, I'm so happy
"Thanks mom i love you"
"I love you too honey "
It's strange how their decision change pero iisipin ko pa ba yon?
