Rose Colored Boy - dreamwastaken

chapter one

tw swearing, abusive relationship, mild violence

Blair was happy. She insisted that she was. Her boyfriend Adam was kind, and funny, and didn't still live with his mom. He knew how to take care of himself, which was a big step up from other guys Blair had dated in the past. They had their moments, where Blair's train of thought would get foggy, and he would become impatient, but she was working on it. On top of that, Blair could hardly hold still for long periods of time. She knew that the tapping and clicking and fluttering of her fingers was distracting at best, and maddening at worst.

"Stop moving around so much, just watch the movie," Adam would say, pushing her hands down.

"I'm sorry, but this is the best part!" She held her arms still, even though the wanted to shake the energy out of her hands. Adam moved farther down the couch away from her. She started tapping her feet softly on the carpeted floor.

"Seriously, Blair!"

She frowned. It's fine that he was mad, since she was being distracting. Blair crossed her legs in front of her and pressed her hands together. She stopped watching the movie altogether, and focused on the sinking feeling in her stomach to make sure she didn't bother him again.

It was worse when they were in public. They were waiting in line to see their favorite band in concert, and Blair could hardly hold still. She shifted side to side on her feet, and opened and closed her hands, hardly containing her excitement.

Adam wouldn't yell at her in public, at least. "Could you stop? You're embarrassing."

Blair blinked. "Huh? I'm just really excited!" She clapped her hands together gently. "I mean, we've been waiting months to see them in concert, and their setlist is at least two hours long! I bet the-"

"Blair, I know. Can you just relax like everyone else?" He rolled his eyes.

She forced her hands into fists and shoved them in her sweatshirt pocket. Her chest was filling with dread again, even though moments ago she couldn't contain her joy.

The inability to sit still was one thing, but the fogginess was another. It was a nuisance at best when they were having a normal conversation, but Adam kept asking her to join his livestreams.

He mostly played videogames, and wanted her to join in. Which seemed like a lot of fun to Blair, except for the constant talking. She could barely keep a constant flow at the dinner table, let alone under pressure. It was okay when they were in a group, in fact, she had gained several friends from streaming.

They were planning on meeting up with one of their friends, Dream, but they never got around to it. He was going to show them around the city since they had only recently moved from Washington, but that was left in the planning stages.

Blair hardly ever streamed on her own, but joined in on their friends' chats fairly often. There was a lot less pressure to keep up a flow of conversation on her own. When she spaced out, the others filled in the gaps nicely.

Even when they weren't streaming, Blair found herself voice chatting with Dream and his friends.

"So, this mod will help with George's colorblindness?" Blair asked skeptically.

"Yes! It doesn't work yet, because it's supposed to be for stuff like Championships, where the colors are more important," Dream went on. Sapnap was on his phone his corner of the video chat, and Dream's camera was off. Blair left her webcam at whatever Adam had set up before, since last time she touched anything, it had ended in yelling.

"It's a whole mod just to help with red-green colorblindness?" She asked again.

"Yes! It will help in bedwars to differentiate the teams, it will help separate the different tools and armor. Ideally, it will make any game where color comes into play much easier," Dream explained again.