Differences

CONFESSIONS

I knew exactly what I wanted to say and  how
I wanted to say it before I came through this door .
Seeing Travis fine ass..... I swear his  deep dark chocolate  gets me every time ..then he just  sitting on the sofa with nothing but boxers on ..
SMH , discombobulated my ass ...

Now I'm just standing here like an idiot talking to myself...Well shit , you got your crazy ass over here now so say something girl don't just stand here looking at him getting wet ...

clears throat ...

Travis look , I only came over here for us to settle this shit in person .

slowly walking over to the sofa , drop my keys on the footstool .
Debating in my head whether I want to sit on his lap , sit next to him or just stand up .. damn

(Travis  )
So you gone just stand there looking at me ...
I thought you was supposed to be talking  so talk!

Travis... sex with you , time spent with you has been the highlight of my life for these past couple of months..
Anticipating your messages , anticipating your lips colliding with mine and anticipating feeling you on top of me sliding inside of me .. .. exhale..

The very fact that I am anxious , a tab bit jealous of the fact you have other women and me doing all this anticipating is just a sign that I'm catching feelings for you and we need to just STOP!
Relieving sexual tension and a welcomed distraction is all you , this ...was supposed to be
I never expected for you to awaken these parts of me that I didn't know existed.
I have spent the last 2 months of our 6 months together in Damn Denial...

Damn I'm not trying to get to deep here but let me speak my truth ...

These few months with you have made me feel more alive , acknowledged, attractive , sexy , confident in myself .. .. I haven't felt this way in
12yrs .  Having this bond with you I finally felt like I wasn't alone ...
The conversations we have , the way you embrace every part of me , the way you look me in my eyes whenever we are face to face .
You don't look through me , you look at me , you see me .... and I know I'm not alone in these damn feelings cause Nigga you took the time out to post a reply to all my petty ass post and memes on Snapchat .  Your ass took offense when I put that SIDE NIGGA Application post on there lol .. ... after you saw it , you told me to take that shit down and stop playing with you ..
We have had our moments where we were mean to each other but it didn't stop nothing ...

(Travis )
Lol ... hell yeah you thought you were hilarious.. that shit wasn't funny and yo ass crazy as hell and bold asf ..
so why the shit bothering you now .. you been bold , why the hesitation and shit now ?? Huh ?? You jealous over other females that I have ...
Nigga please you got a  WHOLE HUSBAND!
Karmen you got a whole other life with someone else . 
How you clocking my movements ?? NAW FUCK THAT ...
Make it make sense??? Damn you cool asf , you fine asf  .... I don't care that you got a lil  fupa
I like your crazy bipolar ass ... mood swings and all !  I don't care  what you got going on as long as we cool .  So all that other noise you can quiet that .. calm ...
Come on over here and sit down and let's get into sum proper tings yeah lol .. gimme some head or some ..

This nigga gets on my damn nerves I swear ..

Really Travis .. Really .. ??!!
Let's be real !!
Ok so .. what about That one particular night I came over here real late and you had candles lit , slow jams playing .
You led me back to your bedroom.. we got undressed and things didn't start off like they usually do when we hook up .. You was taking your time with me .... Kissing me and Sucking on my breast , kissing my stomach , licking and sucking on my clit .. fucking me with your tongue . Fucking me so passionately like you was making love to me .
We got so damn caught up in kissing and you looking into my eyes while teasing my pussy with your dick  .. ... we lost track of time... WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ABOUT THEN TRAVIS ?? 
Hell , you fucked me right up out my wig and when I was getting on top of you, you caught me trying to pull it back down and you snatched it off and threw it across the room.. telling me to stop hiding from you ....
You said , we been knowing each other since we were kids .. I don't have to hide myself or be shy around you .. ..
I never take all my clothes off because I am ashamed of my body but you insisted that I strip down and get back on top of you.
Guiding my hips with your hands ...
whispering slow down , while looking me in my fucking eyes .. it's like you was daring me to utter the words you knew I didn't want to say but felt because you felt the same way ...
Holding me afterwards and asking me not to leave.. wanting me to stay the night and just that whole fucking night Travis .... What was that , that meant nothing ?? Am I the only one with a confession to make ?? Huh ??
Was you playing with my fucking emotions what ??
You was already getting the pussy and every thing else , me cooking for you , picking up your prescriptions after you had your vasectomy..
Pleasing you in every way I possibly can ....
What ?? What are we doing ???
Do I even matter to you ??