Of Struggles and Duties.

Chapter 5: Unpresented Reunion

Did it matter why he was here? That just makes things better as I could meet them both at the same time! It's better than meeting one at a time and we could catch up on more common interests. I passed Lithuania's car and approached the gate that separated Estonia's property from the road and a huff of relief left my lips. This trip was tiring despite the fact I spent most of the time sitting on a bus seat, but yet I still felt tired, not entirely, but tired. I wonder if regular people feel that way too sometimes?

Riga's paranoia and words were attempting to cloud my mind again. Why am I this worried?! Why of all times I can't brush it off, especially when I'm supposed to be happy to visit one of the countries I should supposedly worry about? I gave a firm knock on the door as I did my best to drown those thoughts out as they were currently unwelcome. Couldn't Riga bring this up at a more appropriate time? 

As soon as the door opened, I nearly felt my body jump as I had too much in my mind to concentrate to focus on my surroundings. 

''Latvia, hey! One of your surprise visits?'' To no surprise, Estonia was the one who greeted me with one of his smiles of confidence which usually broke me into a smile too, but this time I could barely return the sentiment and forced a rather pitiful and small smile. 

''Yes, as usual. I noticed Lithuania's car, is he also here?'' It was probably the only time I would have brought up that detail. Otherwise it would seem strange that I would ''expect'' Lithuania there if I mysteriously got it all wrong.

''Yes. His reason for a visit is more political rather than an innocent one like yours...unless you also have come for that reason.'' I nearly laughed at the last assumption, political visits like this are not my style and I would have to coordinate everything with Riga and I clearly said this visit was friendly and not political to her.

''Of course not, if it was, my Capital wouldn't be very approving of my actions.'' I reassured with another, yet forced, smile as those worrying thoughts wouldn't leave my mind. It's not any better that Lithuania was here for a political visit instead of a regular, friendly one.

''Right, of course. Why don't you come in? It'd be rude of me to leave you outside.'' Estonia stepped to the side so I can enter his home which I did. He closed the door rather quickly, I assumed it was due to Lithuania, he was probably waiting for Estonia to come back.

''I'll be in the living room discussing certain issues with Lithuania, you know where the guestroom is.'' Right, this feels very welcoming. No, I can't get mad at Estonia, I was the one to come for a surprise visit and he couldn't have known he'd have a casual visitor.

With that revelation, I merely sighed and those thoughts intensified due to this new knowledge. A political visit that doesn't involve me, it's not uncommon, but would I know of any results if they agreed on something that could affect me and my Capital? Is this possibly one of the reasons Riga was so disapproving of them and their Capitals? How would she know this much? Do Vilnius and Tallinn tell her of these things or does she merely seem to go with some sort of gut feeling? No matter, hope she's satisfied that her words have gotten to me.

I took off my shoes as it was only customary to do that without the host's input, I've known plenty of regular people who need to be told that like children. I've seen plenty of instances as I tend to interact with regular people to the point of becoming friends and getting invited for family dinners and just to stay over, I would still do it, but for the sake of getting more responsibilities done, I've stopped and I didn't want to get too attached to any regular folk, I'll outlive them and seeing them all pass on would probably break my heart so many times. I can truly be friends with other countries like Estonia and Lithuania. Yet those friendships are mainly political in nature from the get go. Perhaps this political nature is why I don't get visited by any of them for the reasons I visit them.

I passed the living room entrance and briefly noticed Lithuania as he seemed to be talking to Estonia rather unhappily about something, I didn't listen into it, it's not my business and I won't break any of their trust by eavesdropping on their discussion. I wonder why he seemed unhappy, did Estonia say something to make him react that way or was the topic anger-inducing? It didn't matter to me, it's not my discussion and I shouldn't care if he's getting angry at Estonia or just angry about the discussed topic. My new lingering thoughts were fueled with even more doubts just by seeing that. Why is this noteworthy to my new worries? Is my mind really entertaining the idea that this is something I should actually worry about? Is this private discussion really something I should worry over? I shook my head, now's not the time to focus on this! It's not an appropriate time or location. I should be happy that I'm visiting one of my closest friends yet all I feel is that terrible feeling of worry and uncertainty. I didn't want to feel this way. I gripped on my travelling bag even tighter and swiftly made my way upstairs as I didn't want to be near any of them right now! I need someone to talk to, yet I have no one right now. Lithuania and Estonia would be the last countries I'd want to talk to due to the fact they're a large reason I have these thoughts, Riga would probably encourage me act on those thoughts as she was the very catalyst on them being so prevalent right now. Maybe I'm just overwhelmed and need to sleep on it, perhaps that will help.

(I'd have posted this 2 days ago, but wattpad was dying on me constantly ;-;)