Keep Holding On (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 17

Long chapter

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Valerie POV

"This is amazing Harry" I said as a tear managed to fall down my cheek.

"I knew you would like it." he said with a huge smile.

"How did you know?" I looked at him confused.

"I talked to Emily, she told me how you always wanted to come here as a little girl, but your mum never brought you"

"You talked to her? Wait..she didn't say anything else?"  I asked, hoping Emily didn't tell him how badly and dysfunctional my mother is.

"Yeah I saw her after school two days ago and no she didn't tell me about your mum and how your dad left when you were young." I looked at him shocked. "Wait..how did you-"

"I figured it out myself." I looked down feeling ashamed. He brought my cheeks in his hands. "Valerie, not everyone has a perfect family. I didn't." he smiled and we sat down on the grass.

"I was 7 when my parents divorced, I remembered my dad sitting me and my sister down and told us he was leaving. I was in tears, that was the first time I've cried so much. He told me and my sister that him and my mum weren't gonna be together anymore, it was probably the worst day of my life." I stayed quite. It was silent now and he was looking down at the floor.

"I'm sorry Harry" I spoke up.

"Don't be, you had it worst and I know it must feel terrible having your dad leave and your own mother not want you. You know if there was anything I could do, I would" a smile spread across my face. Having to feel love by a boy you like was the best feeling in the world.

"Thank you." I said. It was quite for a second feeling the breeze through my hair felt relaxing. I lied down over the grass, a few seconds later Harry followed.

"Hey Valerie?" I heard him say, I turned my head to look at him beside me.

"Yeah?"

"Why didn't you do it?"

"Did what?"

"You said on your last tweet 'I just don't think I can go on anymore', you were clearly gonna do something that night." I stayed silent. I put my hands over my stomach and looked at the bright moon.

I could trust him.  

"I came home one night with bruises and cuts from Carly and Audry. Mother saw me, but didn't cared enough to do anything. I ran to my room and cried all night. I was tired, things were not well at home. I said to myself that's life. But I was wrong. That's not life"

Harry POV

My ears listened to every word Valerie said.

"I had enough that night, I din't wanted to go through this anymore. Depression was winning over me. I went on twitter and saw all my mentions, bad idea. I couldn't take those harmful messages anymore. Message after message after message. After reading all of them I tweeted 'I just don't think I can go on anymore'. As always no one cared. Before thinking I a grabbed a rope from my cabinet. I was planning on hanging myself for years, but I wasn't strong enough to do so. Until that night everything fell. Right when I stood on top of a chair getting ready to kick it Emily came through the door. She helped me think through everything and told me the story about her cousin."

I stayed quite as Valerie said the story.

Valerie POV

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