Possessive Heart's 💓

The predicament

"I know EVERYTHING of the things and people I have an interest in." With that he speed off before Sammy could ask further questions.

'I really should stay away from him.' Sam thought. There is a part of Matt that made Sammy scared.  It's as if he was working hard to restrain a hidden power that sips through once in a while. With a determined resolve, she promised herself to try and avoid Matt. Now that school was a closed chapter, she was just awaiting for her graduation so that she starts job hunting.  She was still thinking of her next path in life when she was stopped dead on her tracks by her fathers angry voice

" where in Gods name have you been? Must we always get mini heart attacks awaiting your return evrytime you are late.!!Common courtesy dictates that inform your us if you are going to be late, is that too much to ask?!!!!!"

With un shed tears "Am sorry dad,I didn't mean to worry you. I won't give an excuse but, from today I will be a better daughter."

"I will hold you to that!" Mr Richards said.

" Come my dearest, have you had your dinner yet?" Her mum asked.

" Yes mum i took some at Brookes."  She said lying to her mother. I have even resulted to lying and disappointing my parents. Who am I turning into. This affirmed her decision to cut ties with Matt.

"Mum,dad i pray to head to bed am a bit tired."

"Ok sweetheart. Goodnight."

"Wait, how was your finals?" Her dad curiously asked.

"Fine, though there was a question that gave me a headache. Am praying that I will pass."

"We believe in you. Now go get some rest." Her dad said.

"Is it me or is she walking funny?" Her mum asked her husband.

"Its you, I didnt notice any thing different she just looked somehow grown up.."

"May be am over thinking it." Her mother added pensively.

Upstairs in her bedroom, Samantha was in  four way call with her girlfriends catching up. Then they all noticed how un attentive she was.

"Sammy? Are you still there?" Kathleen asked.

"Sammy? Sammy?" Called Brooke.

"Samantha!!" Shouted Lisa "Are  you still there? Are you OK?"

"Sorry about that I was a little lost in thought." She replied.

"Did something happen with that god of a man?" Lisa teased.

"Oh God, how did you know."

"So am right? It does have something to do with him!" Lisa enthusiastically said.

"Yes, have any of you girls ever done something you know is wrong yet somehow it feels more than right? Does that make sense to any of you coz am losing it!" Sammy said.

"What's up with you? Spill." Brooke curiously said.

"Well, I slept with him.... it felt right. I mean it was amazing. Just thinking of the things we did, the things he did to me and said while he was doing it, are still making me blush. He was incredible. Am glad he was my first."

"Wait, saint Samantha did what?" Brooke asked in  shock.

Samantha has always had this principle of preserving herself until it was right. When they all lost their V cards and she was still holding on to hers they just assumed that she was waiting to lose it on her wedding day. Guess they were wrong.

"The problem is am now for lack of better word worried if I made a mistake.  I mean, I really do not know Matt that well." She worriedly said.
"What kind of person has he turned me into. When I see him all I want is to kiss him, when he kisses me my world stops and I want to jump him and when he is around all I think of  is him and his gorgeous body. I swear I have never felt      this confused in life." She continued.

"Was the sex that good?" Lisa asked.

"Yes, and more. I felt things I have never felt and my body, well body became his instrument and he,my capable player."

With laughter Brooke couldn't help adding, " The experience also made you  a poet." To which they all laughed.

"Are you now seeing each other?" Kathleen asked.

"No, infact, I plan to avoid him as much as I can. I feel I can't trust myself around him." Sammy said.

There was a knock on Sammy door and she went to open it only to find her mum.

"Sweetheart we need to talk." She said.

"Ok mum, you sound worried. Let me bid goodnight to the girls and we talk."
She then proceeded to bide her farewell to them with promise of  next day coffee date to discuss her predicament.

"So what's up mum? What has you worried?"

"Darling, is there anything you want to tell me?"

"I can't think of anything." She guiltly shook her head.

"Are you sure? Something is different with you, your father despite his ignorance also saw a certain maturity in you tonight, that kind of spark comes after you become a woman. If you don't want to confide in me its ok, but  just know am here if you ever want  to talk. Goodnight honey." Her mum said as she stood to take her leave.

"Ooh mum, where do I start. It's true something did happen tonight. I lost my virginity. Am sorry, I know you had high  expectations of me to make better judgement."

"Is it someone I know?"

"Yes, Matt the guy that rescued me when i was stranded that day you came looking for me."

"When did you start dating?"

"That's the problem mum, am not sure if we are dating or not. We have crazy chemistry. We are taking one day at a time."

"Do you regret it?"

"No mum. It felt right and that's why I gave myself to him. No one has ever made me feel this way."

"How does he feel about you?"

"He says am HIS. This is all confusing for me. I want get a breather, avoid him and see if I will feel the same way towards him. I want to see If my heart will long for him."

"All I can say to you is, be careful my dear. Matters of the heart are complicated. If it helps, no one can say they understand love and the crazy stuff it makes us do."

"Thanks mum, that really helped."

"Well get a goodnight rest and tomorrow will be a new dawn that might offer you a new perspective."

"Goodnight mum, I love you,you are the best. Thanks for not judging me."

"I will always have your back no matter what. We may not agree on some things but know this, a mothers love surpasses all things. I love too my princess."

As her mum was shutting the door, a message pinged on her phone from Matt.

"Are you asleep yet?"

"No, what's up?"

"Can we meet up tomorrow lunch time?"

"I can't i have a thing with the girls."

"Can you cancel or reschedule? I really need to see you."

"Why, is something a miss?"

"Yes, i want to test a theory."

"Which theory?"

"I will let you know once I full tackle it. Do you miss me? All I can think of is how you body felt beneath me. Everytime I close my eyes all see is your face and those luscious lips that beg to be kissed. You are driving me insane little one."

"Please dont say such things, they are just fueling my confusion."

"You are preaching to the choir little one. That's the same state am in. Worst is, i have people who depend on me to make the right decisions or their lives might be affected."

"What is it that you do Matt?"

"Meet me tomorrow and I will answer all the questions that you will have. Deal?"

"I will see how my day will be and give you feedback in advance if we will meet."

"Sam, are you avoiding me?"

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