Hopeless (Stan X Kyle)

Chapter 5

Kyle's p.o.v

"I've been cutting ...I'm sorry Stan b-but I can't stop ... I really can't..." I cried more and more. It was maybe 1 minute of silence , maybe 2 or 3 , when Stan finally spoke :" Kyle ...why ....". I looked up at him , probably with the saddest face he has ever seen in his life. "B-Because I'm not accepted ! People keep bullying me ... calling me Jew like it's a bad thing and plus the person I love will never love me ...It's just hopeless for me ....whenever I get my hopes up they get pushed down ...Stan ...tell me what should I do then ? You're always so popular and cool... everybody loves you ...but me ...who would ever love this ginger jew douche bag ...?" tears kept streaming down from my face , Stan looked down then back at my face and dried my tears then hugged me tightly.

"Kyle , you are accepted and loved by me. And why didn't you tell me you're being bullied ?  I will kick all of their asses who have been bullying you. You are the best person in my life and you don't deserve sadness. And love ? Who wouldn't love such an amazing boy like you ? You're smart , kind , sweet , kind-hearted. There are millions of words to describe you Kyle . You are amazing ."

"...Thank you Stan ...." I sighed and hugged hin back softly. Then there the question came , which I was aware that he might ask .

"If you don't mind me asking , but ...where exactly you have been ...uhm...cutting yourself?...."he asked with a huge worried tone.

I sighed then took off my top pyjama and revealed the cuts all around my chest and hands. They were basically all around my hands. Every single place on my hand ,which was once like others ordinary hand, was filled with red deep cut marks. "I'm S-So sorry Stan..."

Stan's p.o.v

As I saw Kyle's cuts , I just wanted to hug him tightly again , but I just might hurt him more so I just looked at his face with a huge worry in my eyes. "Kyle ..." I saw tears roaming down his cheeks once again and I quickly dried them and patted his head and sighed. "I would hug you but I might hurt you ...I don't want to hurt you anymore ..." I said with a soft tone. "I-It's alright Stan...you can hug me ..It doesn't hurt that much and I've been trying to throw the cutting away from my mind now,"he sighed ,looked at me and put his top pyjama on again and hugged me softly.
'Why is Kyle doing this to himself ...He is stronger than me ... and who is this he loves ?...'I asked in my mind as I hugged Kyle softly back.

"Let's get some sleep , it'll shrug off some of these events from our minds," said Kyle with a sleepy tone.

"Alrighty Kyle," I rolled down on the floor , trying to make Kyle laugh , which had been a success !

"Hey Stan um ... I was wondering if you would sleep ...In my bed with me because then I umm..would feel safer heh.. no homo! "Kyle said with a humorous voice and patted next to him. I smiled, stood up and jumped next to him:" Sure Bro , whatever you need or want me to do , I'll do it!".

Kyle smiled once again and we got ourselves in a comfortable pose , and slowly drifted off to sleep.

Before I had fallen asleep , I half opened my eyes and saw Kyle really close to me , his hand around my waist. I don't know why, but I blushed. His breath smelled so sweetly , like a lemonade. And his curly hair which made him so adorable ...

'Wait what. No homo Stan ! No Homo...'

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