Gravity is a Bitch (Lesbian)

22. Brutal wake up

Elianna's POV:

"What?" I ask Alex who kept staring at me. Lying between her long legs on the couch, I was checking my mailbox and she was watching a movie. But I could, without looking up from my iPad, feel her eyes scan me. She gently slips a hand under my shirt and begins to trace the outline of my navel with her thin, delicate fingers. I tilt my head a little to the side to kiss her on the cheek. I return to my work. But Alex picked up the iPad and placed it on the coffee table. "What are you doing? I have to finish reading this contract"

She sits up, turns me around to face her and I find myself sitting on her lap, my legs on either side of her. Without saying anything Alex put her arms around me and rests her head against my chest. One minute, two minutes passed, I even thought she had fallen asleep but when I go to step back she pulls me even closer.

"Lex ..." I whisper in amused. "You okay?"

"Hmmm" She sighs before looking at me. "You know sometimes I wanna strangle you and kill you so much you annoy me"

"Ok" I laugh and continue to stroke her cheek.

"But other times..like now, I..just want to feel every part of your body against mine. Feel you closer even though there's no more space between us. Kissing or making love to you seems insufficient. Every time I think I can't want you more, the next day I fall a little more in love with you. And, it terrifies me because .. I mean you're married. You say that you love me but I wonder if you really know what that implies" She end up lowering her head, looking really sad, something I really hate to see. I grab her chin and force her to look at me.

"Alex I love you. I don't know how it happened but I'm in love with you and you might be right but for now I want to live this moment of happiness" I would love to reassure her so much, tell her that tomorrow, in a month or in a year we would still be together but I have no right to promise her such a thing. I am married and the likelihood of experiencing something lasting with her is not very favorable. But it doesn't matter how long our relationship lasts. I love this 18 year old girl, I love everything about her, inside and out. Her body turns me on more than anyone, I love her optimistic and naive side it give me faith and hope, her heart of gold and her ability to make friends wherever she goes make me jealous sometime, I love the way she sees the world. "I love you so much"

"Carpe Diem ?" She smiles and gives me a kiss on the nose.

"Yeah, I don't want to think about Ryan, my parents, my job or even the rest of the world. I just wanna kiss you, walk to the beach with you, holding hands, lay down on the dirty ground and admire the blue sky, arguing with you over your movie choices, worrying when you get on your stupid motorbike ... I just wanna love you today"

"Walk on the beach barefoot and holding hand?"

"Well maybe that's a little cheesy." I laughed, resting my head on her shoulder.

"No, it's not. I want to go to the beach so let's go"

"Like now?"

"Yes, now baby. So get up"

"No I have to finish reading this contract. Tomorrow my parents have lunch with Ryan's family, I have to finish this before" I show her the contract that I wanted to present to Albert tomorrow, I had to have 25 more pages left to check.

"Thought you just wanted to love me today" She pushes her lower lip forward pouting and makes her lost doggy eyes look.

"No you can't make that face.. I forbid you..No .." And to finish me off she starts to beat her long eyelashes in the way she knew me to be irresistible. "Argh, I hate you, I hate you"