日食 eclipse. || tsukihina

十一

(Warning: conversation about attempted suicide! please read at your own risk!)

Hinata's POV

"So that was the 'special thing,' huh?" Tsuki laughed lightly as he was cuddling me on the floor.

"Well, special for you. Most everyone here's heard me sing. We do this at every get together, but I'd never sang a love song... until now anyways," I smiled at him.

"You're saying you sang that just for me?" He asked.

"W-well, I umm... yes," I blushed, looking away.

He put his finger on the side of my chin and brought my attention back to him. He pulled me into his chest and placed a kiss on the top of my head. I sighed gently, pulling my head back after a few seconds. I stared deeply into his eyes and said nothing. He smiled and reached his hand up to my face. I leaned into it and closed my eyes.

"I need to tell you something," I said quietly, starting to stand up.

We had all been watching a movie, so no one really noticed that I'd gotten up or that Tsuki followed me out. I led him upstairs and to the roof through Kuroo's room. I sat down and pulled my knees to my chest. He sat next to me, and I leaned against him just slightly.

"How'd you know how to get up here?" He questioned.

"I used to sit up here with Kuroo and Kenma a lot. We'd just talk about stupid things and goof off all the time. Me and Kuroo anyways. You know how Kenma is," I explained.

It was silent after that. Neither of us spoke for about ten minutes. I wasn't sure how I wanted to say it, or if I should even say it at all. I eventually accepted that there was really no way to sugarcoat it, so I just flat out said it.

"I was going to kill myself that night you walked me home."

I could feel his body stiffen against me. He didn't say anything, and then I heard him sniffle. When I looked at him he was crying. He turned his head to me, and I immediately looked away, knowing that I would cry if he looked me in the eyes.

"Shoyo," he whispered.

I didn't reply. I didn't look up. I didn't move. I couldn't move. As hard as I tired to, I couldn't bring myself to look him in the eye. If felt as though it were impossible. If I began to cry, I would never stop, and I knew that.

"Shoyo, look at me!" He shouted. "Look at me dammit! P-please... please look at m-me," his voice softened and then cracked.

I slowly looked up and locked eyes with his. They were less golden and darkened as the pain started to swell within him.

"L-listen, Sho... I'm sorry for every h-hurtful word I've ever said to you. I'm sorry I was so mean. I'm sorry that you've had a hard life, and I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you before that night, and this may sound selfish," he paused, trying to calm his breathing, "but p-please... please don't leave me! I can't live in a world without you. I just can't do it. The moon can't shine without the sun. I'm nothing without you. I need you more than you think I do. I can't live without you... I can't..."

Just like Noya said.

"He needs you just as much as you need him."

"Tsuki, you don't have to apologize. I've never been okay, and that's not your fault. You've actually been helping me get better, you know. I can't remember the last time I showed a real smile before I met you. You're saving me from myself... from my thoughts. I'm glad I asked you to walk me home that night, because if I didn't I would never have gotten to experience the love you've shown me. I couldn't bare to watch over you from another place only to see that I left you in so much pain. I loved you before I even knew I loved you," I stopped, finally looking at him.

We stared at each other for a few moments. The sun was setting, and everything stared to feel like a scene from a movie. The glisten of his tear drops and the way his pale skin glowed under the sun. The only sound that was heard was the trees from the breeze and his quiet cries.

I grabbed onto his hand and brought it to my face. I kissed the back of it softly before holding it to my cheek and closing my eyes.

"Tsuki... I will never leave you. Not in this life or another. I will always come back to you. In every life I live. Until this universe dies out. I physically can't love anybody the way that I love you."

He put his forehead against mine, and I wiped his tears. He reached up and wiped my face as well. I hadn't even realized I was crying too. We didn't say anything more. He just showered me in kisses until I eventually started giggling, and he pulled away and smiled at me with his tear stained face.

"How did I ever get so lucky?" He whispered.

I shrugged and kissed his cheek then rested my head on his shoulder. The sun had finally set, and the sky became kissed with stars as the moon took its place above the city. Tsuki kissed my shoulder and neck lightly. He made his way up my jawline to my check and then hovered over my lips. Nothing sexual radiated in this moment, just pure love.

"Figured you'd be out here."

I turned my head to see Kuroo. He was smiling at us. He must've heard some of our conversation.

"You know me all too well," I laughed.

I stood up and looked down at Tsuki before I smiled and stuck my hand out. He grabbed it and pulled himself up.

"Come onnnn. You guys are gonna miss the rest of the movieee!" Kuroo whined, making the both of us laugh as we went back through the window.

I closed it and walked back to the living room with the two boys. Everyone's eyes were glued to the tv, so I just went back to were Tsuki and I were sitting before. Tsuki sat in front of me, and I pulled him into my chest. It was my turn to comfort him. I kissed the top of his head, and he pulled the blanket over us. I rested my chin on the top of his head and started watched the movie, wrapping my arms around him.

"I like laying like this. Can I do it more often?" Tsuki asked quietly.

"Yes, love," I laughed.

I started to look around at everyone, and I laughed seeing Terushima cry at the movie. It happened to be a romance movie, and as always, Teru shows up alone to these get togethers. I used to cuddle with him to make him feel better, but now it'd be a little weird. No harm in just letting him lean on my shoulder though.

"Teru, come here," I laughed.

He made his way over to us with tear filled eyes. Tsuki looked up at me and raised a brow. I just laughed and shrugged it off. Teru sat next to me, and I continued laughing.

"You can lean on my shoulder, and you can hug me, but if you try anything funny, I'll let Tsuki beat you up and look away. If I didn't see it, it didn't happen," I smiled, and he nodded in response.

Everyone laughed at our interaction, even Tsuki which surprised me. His laugh is one of the things I live for, among other things. It makes me so happy, and I don't truly understand why. I began to just stare at him while everyone continued watching the movie, and then I heard my phone buzz. I took it out to see a text message.

Noya-Senpai

like i said, he needs you just as much as you need him. :)

yeah, youre right. :)

I looked up and made eye contact with with Noya. He was smiling at me. I smiled back and shook my head.

I know you need me. I won't ever leave you, my moonlight.