Small Steps

Chapter 1 - Green Light

"Kate? Calm down, he was on the phone to me this morning moaning to me about how nervous and excited he was." I sighed, rolling my eyes at my ridiculous friend. "No way. He spoke to you? Tell me exactly what he said. Word for word, Lily Williams! Leave out NOTHING!" I laughed, twirling my just curled blonde waves around my finger. "He is very much into you, Kate. Seriously." I then proceeded to tell Kate all the details of Tom's call.

"Lily, I'm wearing that cute pink top that makes my boobs look fantastic, you know, the one from River Island? I've got those new boots too, I'm wearing those. Oh, I'm so excited! I have to go now, I'll see you tomorrow, bye lil." She hung up and I sighed with relief. As much as I loved Kate, she tended to overreact in every situation. Be it boys, mascara or her annoying siblings.

I glanced at my reflection in my bedroom mirror. My blonde hair was teased into a sleek ponytail, and I looked very tired. Not surprising. I'd been ill a lot this last couple of weeks.
Now for the dreaded moment. The test I had finally agreed to purchase late last night.

Positive. I stood staring at the stick for about 2 minutes. No. No, no. I was about to do my a-levels. I was going to Cambridge University. I couldn't believe this.

I sat on my bathroom floor, sobbing my eyes out. Pregnant. Who the hell was the father? I had no idea. I now know that I have to attend the doctors to find out how far along I am.

Normally, I take the pill. But recently I have forgotten to take the stupid thing, and I have actually missed quite a few. I finally put the pieces together when I threw up in the morning.

I drove to the doctors clinic, fighting down the tears that were threatening to spill. I didn't know what to expect, or what they were going to say. I think I was overthinking things.

"It appears as if you are about 8 weeks along, Miss Williams. Everything looks good so far. At this stage, I must inform you that I have to tell your parents, unless you wish to get an abortion. You still have time for that." The kind nurse said. I shook my head. "There is no way I will get an abortion. I will tell my parents though. It might be better coming from me." The nurse nodded politely. "Good idea." She said. "It was nice meeting you Miss Williams." I sighed as she turned and left me in the hallway.

I'm not against abortion. I'm pro CHOICE. I think women should have the right to make whatever decision they want about whether to keep or abort their child. I believe life begins at conception, and even the thought of denying my child a chance at life once it has gone past birth control, makes me feel wrong. I couldn't do it.