Just Another Emo Love Story

Chapter 16

Jessica's P.O.V.

Soon we found ourselves curled up on the couch in the livingroom watching movies when Joe came down the stairs.
Has he been home the entire time?
Blake and I shared a look silently asking the same thing.
"Hey Jessica, why arent you guys in school?" Joe asked me pointedly, meaning he knew damn well what had happened upstairs he just didnt want Blake to know he knew.
"Well after mom had....you know I didnt want to go to school just yet was thinking the end of the week, or even coming to work at your company for a few months and get the work experience portion of high school over and done with." I explained nonchalantly.
Joe gave me a wink and motioned for me to come into the kitchen, I gave Blake a pointed look for him stay put and just watch the movie.
Following joe into the dining room, joe turned around almost instantly when we were in there shutting the doors.
"So do I need to pick up condoms and birth control while I'm out?" Joe asked getting straight to the point.
"Oh my god seriously?" I asked shocked.
"What? Better safe than sorry unless you coming to work at the company was a way of you making sure you actually have a career incase you do get pregnant so you can look after it properly." Joe assumed.
"Oh my god Joe no!" I whisper yelled at him.
"Okay so birth control and condoms are a must, and im taking you both to get a physical done next week just to be on the safe side." Joe commented.
"Can we just pretend you dont know anything?" I begged.
"Nope. No can do. I promised your mother I'd watch out for you, that means in every area by the way." He paused and then continued. "That means boys, friends, work, health, living condition, your emotional state. All of it."
"You really loved my mom didn't you?" I asked sadly.
"Yes Jessica I did. I contacted your father to let him know she had passed, asked if there was anything he wanted to have her wear or look like where he would want her buried. And well...he wants nothing to do with her or you he made that clear to me." Joe explained. "I know it sounds false from my mouth but you are more than welcome to call him yourself but I feel it would tear you apart even more hearing it from him, so I thought having you hate me instead would be a good idea."
"He actually said that?" I asked.
"Yes honey he did." Joe stated.
All I could do was nod I was so close to going and giving Joe a hug when the house phone rang.
"You go back to your boyfriend, remember what I said." Joe said as he walked over to the phone and answered it.
I walked back into the livingroom and sat next to Blake i have him a warm smile and motioned for us to go upstairs, without hesitation Blake was following me.
Once in my room Blake closed the door and once he turned around my lips were on his Blake seemed to freeze for a second before he got his head in the game and he started to push me back over towards the bed before gently placing me onto it.
"Again? And so soon?" Blake whispered in my ear.
"If you dont want to we dont have to, could sit in here and cuddle until it's time to go get Liz from school." I suggested.
"I like that idea." Blake said with a relieved smile.
"You make it seem like I'm taking advantage of you." I joked.
"It kinda felt like it for a second I'll admit, but you wanted to also sit in here and cuddle so let's do that give the whole sex thing a break, last thing I want is for this to become all about that, it never ends well." Blake explained.
"You're not a sex toy that's gonna get thrown away so relax a little, don't over think." I said as I laughed it off.
He then wrapped me in his arms and we talked about everything how school was gonna be when we go back, how we are dealing with his step hag, what we are gonna do with Liz to unsure she gets a good education and make sure she doesn't go back to the wretched hag across the street, we talked about how we were gonna deal with the fact that we literally just met eachother not too long ago, and already, had sex he is living with me we go to school together, so trying to find that common ground so we also have space and time for the things that we enjoy so we are not constantly together and getting tired of one another.
So step one school. That was pretty simple hes just gonna make sure no one bothers me at all and if they do he will kick their asses. Not to find of that approach but there was no use arguing about it.
Step two dealing with the hag. We have to wait till she isnt home so we can go grab all of Liz's stuff and his or we can just avoid her completely and get them all new stuff but that means I have to talk to Joe about all that and see what we can do.
Step three I'm thinking of getting Joe to adopt Liz so she doesnt go with that hag.
Step four is still in the making dont exactly know how to ensure we have our alone time to do what we want to do, I mean he likes to game and I hate it, I dont get the concept of sitting there and getting mad at a screen because I died. I like my spirituality also known as tarot cards zodiac signs comparing the different religions all of that, now Blake doesnt like it he hates it because he thinks tarot cards are evil and open door ways to hell.
However when I point out the fact that crusaders back in renaissance Italy LITERALLY killed for land and killed other people because their religion was different they didnt do it for God like they say, they did it for selfish reasons, anything in the wrong hands can be dangerous including the damn bible. Of course he didnt want to hear it but who does.
So he doesnt like my hundreds of tarot card decks every one of them is different and for different things, he doesnt like my Oracle cards which are like tarot cards but they're more free spirited so you can ask a wider range of questions and your subconscious mind is actually what's seeping through into you and warning you of things that your conscious mind has accidentally or purposely brushed off like it was nothing.
(A/N - I am actually into tarot cards and this argument is the same one I have with every single little bible thumper out there when they tell me I'm messing with forces I shouldnt be, like dude the ouija board is pretty much the same thing, you think you're talking to ghost but guess what bitches you're talking to the other side of you, the part you refuse to listen to I've played with ouija boards, they dont drive people crazy (cant drive someone there if they're already there) they dont really do much again it's your subconscious mind talking to the conscious mind. Anything cam be dangerous if you dont know what you're doing and the intent you have behind playing with such things. Rants over just had to throw that in here because I dont want anyone sitting there getting all pissy cause there are tarot cards and such things being mentioned.)
I dont get why he doesnt like it but whatever so he just doesnt want to be in the room when I do my own readings so whatever, gotta find a way to make that work and still have time for eachother between school, and I was thinking of also going to company after school to get a few hours in and learn a few things from Joe.
I'm also partly trying to stay as busy as possible so I dont have time to really think about mom and her passing although I know I'm gonna have to at some point she needs to have a funeral of some sort within the next two weeks.
"You're gonna be very busy." Blake commented.
"Yes I am, but at least everything will be taken care of and I know Joe will hand the company down to me if I can get my ducks in a row and prove to him that I can do it that i cam handle the busy and manage home, school, the company and my family as well as still have time for the things I enjoy." I explained.
"Are you sure you're not doing this for your mom?" He asked.
"She was always strong she learned how to do it i mean it took her a long time but she figured it out and that's something at least, i want to make her proud to have raised a good strong daughter." I said with a huge smile on my face.
"You know that means you're gonna have to clean up your act as well right?" Blake said as he motioned at me from head to toe.
"I'm not cutting my hair, I'm not dying it back to a normal color, and I refuse to take out my piercings." I glared at him.
"I wasnt talking about that, I was talking about those, you're gonna have to stop if you're gonna be working in a company." Blake informed me as he pointed to my wrists with the new cuts on them.
Sighing I said. "I know I have to it's just-" I started to say but realized I was just gonna come up with excuse after excuse so I stuck with the truth. "I dont want to, for so long it's been the one thing holding me here." I explained as I scratched the back of my head.
"I know but now you have something else holding you here the thought of having your mom look down upon you and be proud of the amazing woman you're becoming, isnt that enough for you?" Blake asked.
"Good thing you didnt use yourself or Liz." I said under my breath.
"Would that have been a bad thing?" He asked.
"Well put it this way, its selfish of you to use yourself or Liz against me main reason is because if I'm not happy and I dont want to be here. You're gonna guilt me into staying here for your own selfish reasons completely overlooking my pain and reasons for wanting to leave this place. Or even hurting yourself because I did it first that's manipulative and its emotional abuse you're making someone that's already at their low feel worse about themselves because now not only have they caused themselves pain but now they've forced you to harm yourself to in an attempt to make them stop, the manipulative bart is that now they will do whatever they can to make it up to you so you forgive them for what they had done to you and themselves, it's unfair and it's disgusting." I explained calmly even though I was seething inside from how many people have said that to me or done that to me. How many friendships I had lost in the past due to that exact behaviour.
Looking at the time it was 3:11pm.
"Shit I'm gonna go get Joe and get him to take me to go pick up Liz, I also need to talk to him about Liz and maybe adopting her so she doesnt go home to the rude hag." I explained to Blake and rolled over on top of him giving him a kiss on the lips and getting out of bed and running down the stairs in search of Joe.