One In A Million [Felix X Reader] COMPLETED

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Felix takes me home and we ate dinner together. He wasn't still acting himself. His still not vocal like he usually is.

I finished taking a shower and he was resting on the couch watching tv but its like he was looking over not really paying attention to the channel.

"Felix?" he doesn't budge. This is making me incredibly worried. I walk over to him and run my fingers through his hair only then did he look up to me out of his thoughts.

"Felix, what's wrong? You're so quiet."

"It's nothing, don't worry about it." he takes my hand and places it on his cheek.

"How can I not? Felix, please tell me." I sit on his lap and wrap my arms around him. I feel him take a deep breath and hug back.

"I'm just tired from practice." he whispers. I move away to look at him. His smile was weak, his eyes weren't shining like it used to stare into me. Thoughts run in my head. Does he not want me to know? Or is he not ready to tell me? I sigh.

"Okay, tell me when you're ready. Then we'll figure it out." he nods his head slightly. I knew him well that he was lying to me at some point. He left after a nap.

Next day, Yeonjun called me and he wanted to take me to the concert venue. He said that there was a possibility that we can film something together for their debut. I was very happy that I'll be part of his debut promotion. I told Felix about this and he was reluctant but he said it was still my choice whether I go or not. I also mentioned to him that Yeonjun invited him too to their concert. Felix was like 'Really? That would be fun, sure.' but the thing is he was still not himself and was still a little gloomy.

Yeonjun's manager told me about the interview that will be held in a few minutes. They were going to ask me a few questions about Yeonjun and his members. I didn't know that much but I think I knew them well.

The days that gone by were hectic and I haven't got to talk to Felix that much. We were both busy with our own work and promoting our songs.

I move around my studio feeling lonely. I needed to get this particular song done but I just can't focus. I play my draft and lean back on my chair.

Wanna lie to you
Say I'm doing so well
Show you photos too, to prove that I've been doing so well
Wanna hide the truth
Wanna dress up hell and heaven, like we all try to do

Felix hasn't been honest with me with what he's feeling.

I'm scared to call you back
I'm not good at trying
To tell you that I'm not doing okay
But I'm dying to hear you say

I wish that he would just tell me what's wrong. I tried talking to him about it but he keeps changing the subject or he avoids it.

Just take a breath, love
Fill your lungs up
Rest your head, there's no sense in losing sleep
You can break down
Let your worst out
Lose your temper, but you're not losing me (take a breath, love)
You're not losing me (you can break down)
Oh, oh

I start to tear up and ball myself on the seat. What did I do? Did I do something wrong to be like this? Does he not love me anymore? What is he thinking right now?

Don't wanna cry to you
I was feeling so good
Take another sip, then hit the bottom like I knew that I would
All the things we do
When we dress up pain like heaven in a moment of truth

I wanna call you back
I'm not good at trying
To tell you that I'm not doing okay
But I'm dying to hear you say

Just take a breath, love
Fill your lungs up
Rest your head, there's no sense in losing sleep
You can break down
Let your worst out
Lose your temper, but you're not losing me (take a breath, love)
You're not losing me (you can break down)

I sing along still crying softly.

You could be so happy, then it suddenly turns
No one can explain it and you don't have the words
I can see you're trying, I can see that it hurts
I can see you're trying, I can see that it hurts

Just take a breath, love
Fill your lungs up
Rest your head, there's no sense in losing sleep
You can break down
Let your worst out
Lose your temper, but you're not losing me
Like a bed that you could fall in when you're broken
I'm the air that's running through our window open
Take a breath, love
Fill your lungs up
Rest your head, 'cause you're not losing me (mm)
You're not losing me

"YN?"

An all too familiar deep voice gently spoke. I turn to the door and Felix stood there shocked to see me crying. I quickly wipe off my tears as he walks over to me.

"Hey, what's wrong?" he asks so delicately like I was the most fragile thing in the world. He was on his knees looking up at me. I face him and put my hands on his cheeks.

"Your hiding something from me and its bothering both of us. Its been more than a week now Felix..." I felt like crying again and I lean my forehead to his. We would argue before but it doesn't last more than a day even less. "Please talk to me."

We stare at each other. He gulps and purses his lips. "I was-" he starts. "I...just didn't like the fact that... Yeonjun was getting in your time." my eyes widen and I move my head back then he continues.

"Before, I knew Seungmin liked you but he never made a move and it was fine with me adding the fact that you were almost married off. But this guy, Yeonjun, he's been orbiting around you recently and it was hard for me. I didn't want to show up overprotective and possessive of you. We all have our own friends but...when ever I see him with you it just doesn't feel right. They way he looks at you its- its making me worry." I drop to him and hug him tightly making him drop to the floor.

Finally, the truth is out. I break into tears and my negative thoughts were gone.
"I- I thought you didn't love me anymore, Felix. I've been waiting for you to say something and everytime you didn't it made me think of all these bad thoughts and the possibility that you'll leave me."

"What? No! I would never leave you YN. I love you so much. I'm so sorry that I made you depressed like this." he hugs me back and kisses my neck and shoulder.

"Felix, I love you and you have nothing to worry about. You made me write an emotional song, damn you." he finally smiles and laughs abit.

"Did you? I'm sorry." his cheeky grin is back and realizing we were still on the floor I stood up with him.

"You owe me, Felix." I cross my arms and pout.

"Okay, what do you want?" he begins massaging my head then my shoulders as I think of what he can do for me.

"Hmm...what about, a date?"

"Sure, where do you want to go?"

"Oh! That puppy cafe we passed by once. I really want to go there."

"Then we'll go there once we get our day off next week, cool?"

"Cool!"