𝐈 𝐊𝐄𝐄𝐏 𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆, 𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘

Just Like Smoke

[small mentions of mental health issues, self-harm, self-depreciation, bullying, death.]

MOST of the dialogue is in the order of gabe, sam, cas, dean.

Wanna know who burned you so bad

"Cassie, you can't let this get in your head. It's killing you."

Left your heart in ashes on the ground

"Dean, you're hurting yourself. You have to stop."

Made you promises, took 'em right back

"Maybe that's a good thing."

Left you cold and alone, now all you know is the sound

"I can't."

Of goodbye

"What they say? It's wrong. You're too good of a person to be broken down."

You won't let anyone inside

"You can, Dean. You can."

Baby, you're just like smoke, blowing on the wind

"I'm really not."

One minute, you're by my side and then you're gone again

"How can you be so sure? To trust me that much?"

You might be bad for me, but I just wanna breathe you in

"I call bull."

Every time I reach out, I find there ain't nothing to hold

"Because you're my brother."

Boy, you're just like smoke

"Don't 'call bull' on me. I already know I'm pathetic."

We can start out slow like an ember

"Yeah, a poor excuse of one."

Get the fire burning back behind your eyes

"That's not what I said, Castiel."

I wanna feel you when we're together

"No,"

So, whatever you do, baby, don't disappear

"Everyone else does."

This time

"Look, I- I know Dad's death was hard, but you can't do this. You promised me that much, but you broke it."

Don't fade into the grey tonight

"But I didn't."

Baby, you're just like smoke, blowing on the wind

"You knew I would. Just like I always do."

One minute, you're by my side and then you're gone again

"You're family, and family lies."

You might be bad for me, but I just wanna breathe you in

"Not always. Never."

Every time I reach out, I find there ain't nothing to hold

"Well, I don't. Not to you."

Boy, you're just like smoke

"Yes, always. Especially with Mom."

Smoke

"Yeah, right."

Smoke

"That wasn't your fault. If anything, it- it was Dad's."

Yeah

"Enough with the sarcasm, I'm serious."

Baby, you're just like smoke, blowing on the wind

"Dad didn't do a damn thing, I messed up."

One minute, you're by my side and then you're gone again

"You don't think I am as well?"

You might be bad for me, but I just wanna breathe you in

"Yeah? Well, if I remember correctly, you weren't even in the house when that happened."

Every time I reach out, I find there ain't nothing to hold

"Not when you're hating yourself, no."

Boy, you're just like smoke

"I'm still to blame. And a poor excuse of a son, too."

Boy, you're just like smoke, yeah

Red lines. Bloodshot eyes. Broken hearts. Ill minds. Healing together.

(462 words)

and my copy + paste isn't working correctly, so i went the lazy route for my author's note!