attitude ( with draco malfoy )

ten

When I was younger I went through a damaging relationship that broke my heart for I long time. I gave up on myself i thought that I was going to be broken forever. I thought that I wasn't capable of loving or liking anyone ever again, but I was so wrong!

Draco hadn't spoken to me all day I felt like I did something wrong.
I mean he has looked at me for a second and that's it. I didn't want to go up to him and talk to him. I thought that he would end up pushing me away.. I Ignored him like he was ignoring me all day long.

In the grand hall I sat with Harry, Ron and Hermione. We started laughing at one of Ron's stupid joke which to be honest aren't even funny. Draco went up to us as shouted..

'Why don't you stop laughing all three of you. I'm trying to eat peacefully without anyone talking or disturbing me, so do me a favour and  shut up!' Draco screamed

His words hurt me, even though he wasn't specifically talking to me his words still hurt me and they got away though my heart.
I grabbed his hand quickly before he left. He turned around so harshly i-it made me jump. I haven't got scared like that since.. since I started getting abused. I let go of dracos hand slowly as I started to remember lots of feelings and memories that I never thought I would think of again.

'Pft' Draco scoffed 'that's what I thought' he gave me a sort of dirty look but with a sad expression still lying on his face.

I looked at him with so much sadness I didn't realise that he was just joking about all of that. He winked at me, ughh how I could get used to this. But I shouldn't. Oh lord here comes that sexy smirk.

Once again he gives me the sexy smirk and the eyebrow raise. But why?

Just that second I felt something drip out of my mouth. I was fucking drooling for gods sake. I never drool unless I see someone as hot as Draco. Ok ok I like him. Screw that, I love him and I'm addicted to him.

The memories slowly popped into my head once again. I tried to forget them but I can't. I blame my stupid mother for them. If you don't know who my mother is she is..bellatrix! I know everybody hates her literally but... I don't blame them cause I hate her too. I'm not ready to tell Draco I'm really not and I'm not planning on telling him at all.. yet.

I've got to keep it a secret. Just like how much I am addicted to him!