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Let Go

Oikawa sat and looked out the window. The view was calming, in fact he felt the most at ease that he had been in a while. Oikawa's head whipped around as he heard a soft knock on the door, it opened, Oikawa smiled. 

"you're late"

He chuckled, extending his arms up cracking slightly from being in the same position. 

"what do you mean late? I said I'd be here at 4:00."

Oikawa looked up at the clock.

"yeah you did, but its 4:05" 

He turned covering his head bracing for a punch in the arm or something... nothing came. He felt the weight on the bed shift, he looked up. 

"Are you ok Iwa?"

Placing his hand on the others shoulder. 

Iwa turned his head towards OIkawa with a slight smile. His smile made Oikawa feel more at ease.

"These beds sure aren't comfortable?"

His smile doped. Why was he avoiding the question? 

"uh.... yeah its a hospital bed Iwa..."

Iwa turned away. Oikawa opened his mouth to say something but he was cut off. 

"Do you think I'm fine? Honestly Toru, would you be fine in this situation."

Oikawa glanced away before looking back over at him. 

"uhm, no I guess not" 

"so could you just..."

Iwa swung around but stopped speaking once he saw Oikawa. He sighed. 

"Come here" 

He pulled the younger towards him. He wiped the tears that Oikawa cried. 

"I'm sorry Toru don't cry" 

He wrapped his arms Oikawa and held him. Oikawa griped Iwa's shirt tight. 

"I'm trying so hard to get you to think of other things but I can't. You shouldn't have to feel pain because of me it's not fair to you!"

Iwa brought his head to Oikawa's shoulder. 

"Toru... it's not your fault I'm in pain I just care about you too much" 

He raised his head off his shoulder, lifted Oikawa's head up and slid his hand to his cheek. His cheeks were slightly wet from his tears, eyes red and puffy, this sight almost made his breakdown. Oikawa placed his hand on Iwa's hand and tilted his head into his hand. He smiled and so did Iwa. 

"Can I ask you to do something for me Iwa?"

He nodded

"Anything" 

Oikawa took a deep breath before speaking. 

"Don't come visit me anymore."

Iwa's eyes widened 

"T-Toru I I can't" 

"But you said anything Iwa-Chan" 

OIkawa smiled. Iwa looked into Oikawa's eyes.

"But why?" 

"It's just going to hurt you more. The doctors don't think I'll make it much longer than a few months. Cancer's a terrible thing, Iwa you shouldn't have to see me suffer. This way if you leave now it won't hurt as much when I am gone" 

OIkawa forced a smiled letting a tear fall down his cheek. Iwa sat back looking up at the celling. 

"Is that what you really want?" 

He looked back at Oikawa. He nodded. 

"I want you to be happy Hajime" 

Tears fell onto his hands, he looked up at Oikawa.

"That won't make me happy! I only want to be with you, I don't care if it hurts more after, as long as I'm with you for now." 

Oikawa stopped smiling and broke down. 

"Than you Hajime" 

Iwa brought the boy into his arms once again. 

"I love you Toru" 

Oikawa smiled to himself.

"I love you too Hajime" 

They stayed like that for longer than they thought, Iwa had to leave but he promised to come back the next day. He left feeling less empty than when he came. By the time Iwa got home it was raining pretty hard, he headed straight to his room and lay in his bed looking out the window. He whispered.

"I won't leave You Toru I promise." 

Oikawa lay in his hospital be looking at the rain roll down the window, he closed his eyes. 

"I'm sorry Hajime"

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Iwa walked into the hospital, the fact that he could recall almost every square inch of the place scared him. He walked up to the receptionist at the front desk.

"Good afternoon, how can i help you?" 

She greeted him with a warm welcoming smile, almost reminded him of Oikawa.

"Hi, I'm here to visit Toru Oikawa" 

Iwa was getting restless he just wanted to see him.

"Alright let me check" 

The soft tapping of her acrylic nails hitting the computer keys calmed him.

"alright uhm..." 

Iwa looked up from the desk at looked at her with a soft smile

"There doesn't seem to be anyone in our system by the name Toru Oikawa, I'm sorry are you sure that's the name your looking for"

Iwa looked to his side then back at her.

"Yeah I'm sure" 

She looked at her computer and then back at Iwa, she shook her head

"Ah Iwaizumi you're back..." 

A voice rang from behind him he shot around, a doctor stood a few steps behind him.

"Iwaizumi I'm sorry but, Oikawa passes away three years ago he's not here anymore You need to Let Go. "