"It's morning"
The alarm screamed
I shut it off
And got back to sleep
Waking up
I got off from bed
Mornings are peaceful
But not for me, my bad
Turn on the music
Because I have no patience
Start walking
Not to continue the day
But to escape
cause I love my own absence
It's been an hour
Time to return
Turn off the music
Get ready for school
I've got lessons to learn
I'm in the school
Laugh, act silly, pretend to be there
"Why is feeling of homesickness arising in me?"
"I wish to go away"
"But I hated home anyway"
"Than why I wish to go away"
"but bitch where?"
Nevermind
Wipe off the thoughts
Pretend to be okay
Coming back home
I could hear the screamings
Huh same shit everyday
I roll my eyes
"Why was I homesick for this?"
Nevermind
I wipe it off
Turning on the music
I start walking
Nothing went well during the day
But do I care?
"I have these people who love me,
That's all that matters"
I told myself
But, I stopped immediately
"Which people?" I asked myself.
Turning off the music
My legs hurt
Probably because I walk thousands of steps everyday
"I care about my fitness" I told myself
"Really? " My mind asked me back
Did some work at the night
Suddenly I feel something
"Someone hurt me that day"
"It wasn't even my fault"
I tell myself
Nevermind
I wipe it off
Turn on the music
And start walking
Not to end the day
Not for my fitness
But to escape
Getting tired
I put myself to sleep
"What was I homesick for?"
I ask myself this last question
Closing my eyes
It's calming
"Same shit everyday"
I told myself.
