Dear Draco

07

Dear Draco,
Do you know how hard it's been to try and forget you? All the love and hatred I have towards you is crazy. Your death has ruined me. You being gone is still so surreal but it feels like I relive your death everyday.

"Avada Kedavra" yelled the man we all feared.

This is all your fathers fault. If he had just done what he said you would still be here. I constantly feel that pain in my heart everyday that passes. The way you looked me straight in the eyes and mouthed that you were sorry as you fell to the ground.

The way I fell to my knees and it just felt as if everything went silent. Every time I close my eyes that's all I see. A part of me feels like it was wrong to have tried to get rid of the memory of you but a part of me felt as if you would have wanted me to not be this sad.

Knowing your father is still out there living his life while you are six feet under makes my blood boil. What if this hatred and anger leads me to become like Voldemort? What if I already am like him. All I want is the satisfaction of seeing the life drain out of your fathers eyes as I remind him that it's his fault your dead.

He doesn't deserve to be alive. Maybe I'm just talking crazy but what if I did it? Do you think I would feel relieved perhaps like a weight has been taken off my chest. Like I could breathe again to know you didn't die in vain."

I shut my journal dark thoughts circling my head and for a second all I can think of is murdering all of those death eaters the thought of Draco subsides. Maybe it's time for a new villain to rise just that this time I will be doing it to avenge my love.

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Tbh I lost track of where I am going with this but if you're still reading pls vote on the chapters >:) I hope you guys like it sorry all of the chapters are so short but school has me stressed I'll try to update more!! Much love