Dear Draco

06

The last couple of days have been tough I know my memory is slowly coming back and I don't like it because it feels like my world is falling apart.

Why can't I just be left alone Im happy as I am right now. Now that my memories have started coming back I'm starting to feel like a weight is being set on my heart or as if it keeps falling to the pit of my stomach.

And it all goes back to those grey eyes and white hair. The mystery boy who I don't know but has suddenly taken over my brain.

Everytime I think of him I just want to shrivel up into a ball and cry but at the same time he is so enticing and I find myself wanting to know more, to be near him, to hold him.

I constantly find myself smelling green apples, mahogany, and mint. This is my favorite scent. When I close my eyes I can hear his heart beat as I lay on his chest and he smells of everything I love. But who is he? Who is this boy that I constantly see in my head? I feel like I know the answer but do I want to admit it?

Am I ready to let that pain come back to me? Because pretending that I don't know what it is and like I actually lost my memory is better than letting all those feelings back inside.

I squish my eyes shut just to be able to hear his heart beat and the low vibrations that come from his chest as he hums that tune I love so much. To be able to feel like he is right there, with me in that moment I feel happy.

Opening my eyes is like no other pain. Seeing this world without him the man I was supposed to marry. I try to push the memory of him away I'm not ready. You will never be ready. I pull out my notebook and begin to write.

Dear Draco....

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Sorry for the short chapter it's late and I'm tired and sad.