MY BIG SECRET

Chapter 36✿

Tyler's POV

I could live in there attic . It's big and spacious and everything is arranged and it's so clean . I stood there watching as Matthew walked further . "You can sit there" . Matthew said pointing to a extremely comfortable looking chair . I gladly sat as Matthew looked through the boxes with his name written on them .

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It's been a while and Matthew's still looking through the boxes and he had to take me to the bathroom a few times . More than a few times but going to the bathroom is a frequent thing for me. All that were in the boxes were marked tests and test results. I don't think there is a low grade in any of these . Every thing is A+ . No B or F or D . Just A+ . "Did you ever get a low grade Matthew. He then started chuckling like I said a joke. From that to a full blown laugh . I was so confused I just asked a question . Wait is he making fun of me . "Are you making fun of me?" . I said sadly . Does he think am an idiot . "No . Just HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA " . He continued laughing like that for a while and I think he's gone crazy or is there laugh gas in one of those boxes . "Am sorry . Am sorry . No I've never gotten a bad grade in my life . One my parents would have actually killed me, two it left me uncomfortable in a way and when you spend half of your life doing people's home work at night, Anyone would eventually learn something " . I was confused again . Why was he doing people's home work . "Finally" . Matthew said carrying a huge box up . Mathew♡ . Written on it . "Ok we can go" . He said helping me up . He put the boxes back to how they were before .

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"Have you gotten what you wanted". Alexa asked Matthew . "Yes mom" . "Great" . She said standing on tippy toes to carry an album from the box . "Come sit Tyler" . Alexa said walking to a fluffy couch. I sat next to her . She opened the album . The first picture and of her preand a man standing in front of a house with a blue roof . Am guessing the man is her husband. "That's me and Paul . We bought a bigger house when I was pregnant with Matthew" . She turned it around and more pictures of her pregnant with Matthew . "Let me tell you something . Once you're pregnant you'll never get your old body back ever" . Wow guess am never getting that body back . "Am so happy your not like that Damien guy" . "Matthew brought him here" . "God forbid such. So he could dirty my home . I came to visit Matthew and unfortunately he was there ". She hates Damien not shocked .

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"Are you done?" . Matthew said looking at both of us . "Fine. I was just showing Matthew how cute you were . You wanna take away all that I have of you . You never come to visit anymore" . "Am sorry Mom" . He said hugging her . "I'll give you some pastries to go " .

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We were back in Matthew's apartment . I sat on the couch with Matthew's . "Tyler are you sure wanna hear this" . "Yes. Yes . Yes . Yesssss . How many times do I have to say it" . "Ok" . He carried a photo album . "This is me" . He said pointing at the chubby boy . "You look cute" . "Please stop lying . I was disgusting" . How low he just put himself scares me . "I was the fat , disgusting guy in school. Anyone could bully me . No one was my friend except Oliver . I was forced to do people's homework . That's when my dad was starting his business and my mom helped him . So I felt like I shouldn't bother them with my problems . No one liked me and the fact I was openly gay made it much worse . I got my daily beatings and and insults every day . Suddenly one of the foot ball players Steven started hanging out with me . He stopped the school from using me as there punching bag and I stopped staying up night doing people's homework . I didn't tell Oliver because Oliver was extremely over protective of me and I thought Steven was gonna end up punching me or some mass prank like throwing over the cliff. So I didn't want to cause problems for him . He really didn't know I did people's homework or the beating up thing . If not I think he would have tried to beat up the whole school and I didn't want to make his life mine . So I didn't tell him about it . I usually wait for everyone to finish shower before I take my own . I didn't want to make anyone blind with the sight of my body . So in the showers I heard some noises . It was Steven and he walked in the showers naked like me . You could imagine how flustered I was . I mean a gay boy seeing a handsome boy's body . Soap suds were still on my body but I didn't care . I wanted to leave . So I slipped and he caught me . I was dumb and no one had ever treated me the way he did . Except Oliver he treated me better but he was in a higher level than me . He kissed me. I was shocked I was flustereand and I enjoyed it . It was my first kiss and he was good kisser . From that day forward we started hanging with me more inviting me to parties and friend gatherings . Even though non of them wanted me there I still came . I came for him like an idiot I came and it was a good thing I came to those pointless gatherings . I seriously don't see the point in those . Even the gatherings I go to now are also pointless to me but they get me investors so I don't care . I found him . I found him kissing Oliver and I couldn't fault Oliver he didn't know me and him even knew each other . When I confronted Steven he said that he was only using me for Oliver to notice him that I was really disgusting to hold and kiss he said that I was crazy to the think he would set eyes on me that when I wasn't working he just took the leap. See Tyler even though I said you were fat I know how that feels . I just wanted to try it . I wanted know how it feels what is the appeal . That really hit me and Oliver eventually found out and he took me sorry and comforted me and said it was my fault for not telling him anything . I still made the same mistake . In college this guy named Peter . He dated me for a while took my virginity and fucked Oliver too and told me he only used me and that was for a fuck nothing else . He said I wasn't a looker so should get it . He said like I was a piece of trash. It really hurt and he wasn't the only in College he's the one that made me realize that I couldn't find Romance unless I was like Oliver but I ended up vomiting on him . So I just stopped eating everything . I just stopped . It made me thinner so I continued . I did it so much that I couldn't eat food anymore cause it was honestly no use to me . It became so serious that watching other people eat disgusted me . I only drank water . Even fruit disgusted me cause something eatable was used to make it . Since I was in College my parents didn't know and my room mate didn't care I reduced a lot. My old clothes were then sleeping gowns" . He said carrying a different album and showing me . All I could see was his bones oh my god that isn't natural . "Yeah. No body still didn't want to date me so I assumed I was born to die alone . As soon as Oliver saw me again since I was ghosting him . He took me straight to the doctor . The doctor said in a few days I will die cause my body couldn't handle it self anymore with out any nutrients . So Oliver forced me  to eat I didn't agree so he took me to my parents who took me to therapy and now am better . I know half of that is pointless but-" . I shushed his wet lips do his crying and kissed him . "Matthew am not with you cause of your money or body . Am with because of what's in here" . I said kissing him . It's ok. Matthew I'll always be with you . All of us . I said putting his hand on my stomach . He smiled crying on me . "I started to believe love was a curse I kept trying to revoke . Oliver has always been the perfect one so am sorry I was jealous". Awww . God people are cruel .