im feeling super down nothing i do works out i just have to bullshit everything and praythere's literally no point to anything anymore and i dont want to be a part of it i always feel so detached and lost and hopeless there's nothing even left to look forward to and the only things that keep me happy are always shadowed by responsibilities and duties and overwhelming sense of panic and stressi just dont want to keep going theres nothing left for me to be excited and hopeful for anymore and the few attempts i try to reconnect with my work and get things done and feel accomplished for once just fall in vain because of how confused and stressed and anxious i am and then i get distracted, taking me further from my goal and motivation i waste time talking to people and watching youtube and drawing because i always think that everything's going to be ok and that im doing this for myself and that i need this but guess what its only hurting me and making me more lost and confused and going to affect my future and progress in life so theres just nothing left anymore i really fucking hate myself and this world my parents had such high expectations and accomplishments for me which could've been so easy but no i make everything so complicated and screw it all up im such a fuckup i cant do anything right and theres just no point in trying anymore.
I'm so sorry im really trying hard to grasp at something that can at least give me a shred of peace and hope but it's been getting harder to do every day, i just want somebody to hold me and tell me that everything's going to be ok and it will all work out in the end, and to believe in me.
i just needed a place to vent, thank you for everything.
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