The Prince & The Servant Girl

Chapter 35♥️

~Y/N POV~

I didn't feel too good today but I pushed myself to have another lesson with Namjoon in the library today. I thought it would be good to also use it to get my mind off things instead of working and having to try and avoid either Jungkook or Sakura.

I haven't seen Jungkook since he tried to talk to be three days ago but maybe it's for the best. I have however seen Sakura wondering around the halls every now and then. I don't like her and never will. When she notices me, it's like she gives me this stupid grin as if she had won in something but I know what she doesn't.

I'm pregnant and it's definitely Jungkooks baby. Hers, I'm starting to question now that I actually sat down with Hoseok himself and he talked to me about something's that I may not have known about.

I guess it's different when you here someone else explain things and not hear it from Jungkook himself. I was just to hurt to listen and not accept it but at the same time I still think it's impossible for us to be together. That is clear, as long as Sakura is around nothing can be done about it.

This is all o think about and I wish it could stop. Just to be rid of these thoughts for one day, one day is all I ask. However that led to me dozing off in my own world not listening to a single thing Namjoon was telling me about reading some long ass words that I'm still learning the meaning of. This just puts me down even more. I'm about to be a mother yet I'm still learning to read and write. Obviously Sakura can read and write and count higher than I can and then there's me.

See I'm even now comparing her and myself even more than I use to because she would be able to provide better education for her child and I can't. But Jungkook will find out soon enough about this but I have no idea how he'll react to it.

It's scary to think about honestly.

"Y/n?" Namjoon

What if he doesn't want?
Is that even a question?
I don't know anymore, this is all too much to think about even if I can't stop thinking about it.

"Y/n?!" Namjoon

Should I try and tell jungkook soon or just leave it?
But I'm still scared to talk to him let alone see him. He makes me nervous.

"Y/N!!!" Namjoon

I shook my head and threw myself back in my chair startled by Namjoons loud voice that echoes through the library.

"Are you even listening to me?" Namjoon

I shook my head again and looked down sadly to my lap, fiddling with my pencil between my fingers. He let out a loud sigh and put down his book and slammed it shut.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Namjoon

I looked up at him caught off my his question and forced out a laugh.

"There's nothing to talk about."

He squinted his eyes at me totally not buying what I'm saying and tilt his head to the side to place both his hands on the book in front of him and lean closer.

"Are you serious? With all this you and Jungkooks stuff going on you expect me to believe that?" Namjoon

I shrugged and avoided his gaze again, biting down on my lower lip nervously.

"Look y/n you can talk to me about anything. I won't judge so if anything is bothering you I'm always here to talk. No worries and what is said between us is between us." Namjoon

I nodded at him, just to meet his soft eyes that stare back at me accompanied with a reassuring smile and his hand on my shoulder assuringly.

"Thanks. I'll remember that."

I nods to that and looks down at his book that he just closed. You could see he was battling with himself whether to open up the book or not again but in the end just sighed and removed his hands from the book just to push it away across the table.

"There is something I think you should know though. Unless you already know but I just found out this morning myself." Namjoon

I raised a brow to him but grew more anxious and scared to know what he wants to tell me. I had a sneak suspicion it's about Jungkook.

"About Jungkook? Is he okay?"

He nods and yet laughs lightly to that just to sit back in his chair and drop his hands to lay lazily on his lap.

"Yes he's doing okay. He could be better in my opinion but that's why I need to tell you what I'm about to." Namjoon

"W-what is it?"

This didn't help his case in trying to make me less worried but if not more worried.

"Jungkook is going away for a few months. At least two months max, I think." Namjoon

"Why? Where?"

He sighed again and glanced over to the library doors and then back to me again.

"Not only does he have some sort of business deal with the farmers produce board but also to get some help, mentally." Namjoon

He tapped his temple with his pointer finger and this made me deepen my frown towards him.

"He's that bad he needs help?"

Namjoon eagerly nods and gives me a look of certainty.

"Oh yeah big time. Y/n, he's not himself. He puts on this big act in front of everyone but see when it's just us around him, he's not the same." Namjoon

"How?"

He took a deep breath and looked up to the ceiling just to then push up his glasses and return his sights back to me.

"Because he doesn't sleep, he barely eats. He started up smoking again and drinking. Hoseok has to fight him to stay off the drugs which is a common accurance lately. If he's not on any of those things he just stays up all night crying and refuses to talk to anyone. Y/n he needs this help or he's going to go crazy." Namjoon

I sunk back in my chair and wrapped my arms around my belly. It hurts to think he's hurting so much, if only I could help him in some way.

"But don't worry though. Jungkook will be fine when he comes back. I promise." Namjoon

I nodded to that and I couldn't help but feel guilty for this. I feel part responsible for the way he is, for his pain. One half is telling to go find him now but another part is saying don't do it.

"When does he leave?"

"He already left y/n." Namjoon

Oh.

I should of known.

Now I'll have to wait until he comes back to see if he's okay or speak to him in anyway. That's if he wants to but if I have to wait and he gets better then so be it. I'll wait.

But it's going to be a long two months.