The Summer I'll Never Forget.

23

We have a week left of our stay here, and no one has spoken about the possibility of us staying in America since the day on the beach. We have all forgotten about it, everyone just enjoying the time we have left here until we undoubtedly have to talk about it.
Anna has mentioned to me that she will come out here if i have to stay here, but i know she doesn't mean to live - as much as she hates being at home at the moment she wouldn't just leave her mum behind without so much as a goodbye.
It's sort of the elephant in the room for everyone, no one mentions going home because we don't want to have 'the talk'. I woke up this sunny Saturday morning in the mood to decide what we were doing - i needed to know if i was packing up my things this week or not.

"Mum" i called as I walked down the stairs.

"In here, Hay" she called back from the living room. "What's up?"

"What are we doing?" I blurted, "are we staying here in Miami or are we going home. I don't know which one i want you to say, i can honestly say i don't know anymore, but i want to know. I need to know what i am doing after this week"

"Your dad and i have decided to leave it up to you, Hay."

"What?" I asked, shocked.

"look, you're the one with ties to both countries, so it's only fair you decide which ties you want to cut. I will tell you this though, Mandy and Joe are staying here in America, they haven't told the boys yet, so don't tell them. But they are staying here, and your dad has a potential job lined up here."

I looked at her as if she had an alien head attached to her human body. I felt like i had such a big decision to make and it wasn't even 10am.

"But, with all that being said, we want you to know it is entirely your choice, and we don't mind which one you choose. Dad has a job at home, as do i, and you have school in both, friends in both... so you do you, have a think and let us know"

Well, that wasn't how i wanted the conversation to go - i now have to choose between my bestfriend and my boyfriend.
How, in the holy hell, am I going to do that?

***

I had spent the better part of 3 hours laying on my bed weighing up the pro's and con's of leaving both America and the UK, and i was no closer to a decision than i was 3 hours ago.

"Okay, out with it" Anna said sitting next to me on my bed. "What's going on?"

I sat up and looked at her, not sure whether to tell her that her potential boyfriend was going to be staying in a country that she wasn't going to be in. "The Cassidy's are staying in Miami" i said, looking at her to judge her reaction.

She didn't react, "i figured as much"

"Really?"

"Yeah, since the beach. They were already set on staying here, they only said all that to give you the benefit of the doubt. Do the boys know?"

"No" I sighed, laying down. "And my mum and dad are saying it is up to me where we go, so basically i have to choose between you and the place i have called home for most of my life, and the place i have wanted to be forever ... with my boyfriend."

"Okay, and what's your decision"

"I don't know... they both have so many pro's and con's... and i know my mum and dad want to stay here, so i am being selfish even thinking about it but... i can't just leave you and my whole life... can i?"

"Hay, the only thing keeping you in the UK is me. Which is ridiculous! I am not going anywhere, i can come out whenever, especially as my parents don't give two shits about me!"