The Summer I'll Never Forget.

28.

"good morning, sunshine" Luc said as i walked into the room. "saw you having a chat with your mum so i stayed up here. everything okay?"

"it will be" i said, sitting next to him on the bed.

"what's up?" he said, taking my hand in his like he always did when we were having a serious chat.

"i need to explain myself, about last night -"

"no, Hay. it's fine"

"no it isn't." i said, stopping him. "Luc... what you saw wasn't a moment, i feel nothing for that boy... how could i when i have you? What you saw was me having an internal conversation with myself about how someone could want me. I have some deep rooted issues because of Chris, which i'm sure you know. I have issues i don't even know about, and i'm sorry you have to find out about them the same time i do. I didn't know i felt that way until last night. i didn't know i needed validation like that, and i hate that i do. But even when he gave me the validation i apparently needed, it didn't matter. The only one i wanted to hear it from was you. Lucas, i need nothing from anyone so long as i have you. I'm so sorry i upset you, i'm even more sorry you had to find out about this insecurity the way you did, i didn't even know i had it. You are everything to me... i never want to ruin this or lose you. i didn't realise quite how many issues i had since Chris because i just pushed everything away and to the back of my mind... it's only now i have to deal with them because -"

"because what?" he asked.

"because... i fell in love with you"

his eyes found mine and glazed over.

"I'm having to deal with all these issues because i'm finally allowing myself to feel again. I'm allowing myself to love you, and ... You're it for me, Lucas. You're my one, i don't ever want anyone else because no one will ever be enough for me after you. You're ... it"

He stared at me for what felt like ages before opening his mouth to talk. "Hay... you don't need to apologise for last night, i had a jealous moment and i'm sorry for not trusting you and what we have. I've told you once before, i love seeing these new parts to you because they add up to the girl i love. Don't ever apologise for dealing with an 'issue' from your past because i will be there to help you. I promise to love you, Hayley, throughout everything. As we grow and learn new things about eachother, i will love you. As we fight and fall out, i will love you. As we make up and make amazing memories, i will love you. You're it for me, too. i never want anyone else, i never want to lose you"

Of course, i was crying. i felt like i'd just been proposed to. How the hell did he get so... amazing. He broke the mould, he really did.

"i love you, so so much" he said, pulling me into a kiss.

"i love you" i said as we broke apart. "i love you, forever"

The kiss deepened and we laid back on the bed. Tangled in the covers we rolled around on the mattress, fighting to get closer to each other, we were feverish and couldn't get enough of eachother.

"come with me" Lucas growled. He took my hand and led me to the bathroom across the hall, locking the door once i was inside. He grabbed me by both cheeks and kissed me, making me weak at the knees.

"luc" i breathed, which only made him growl in response. He picked me up and put me on the sink, wrapping my legs around his waist.

"i love you" he whispered against my neck as his tongue attacked the space between my neck and ear.

i tilted my head back and arched my back, pulling him closer to me by my legs. "turn on the shower" i said breathless.

He did as he was told as i hopped off the counter. I lifted my shirt above my head and stood there naked - apparently i didn't put any pyjamas on last night. Luc turned back around and froze, shock and lust taking over his body.