OURS

Chapter 17

"I don't know why in the hell you think you can just be out all night long when you have me at home Kai! Where the hell were you???"

"Jew man, chill out with allat.. Ion feel like arguing with you. I'm tired of it."

"Oh so that's it. You tired... you tired of me? You tired of this relationship?"

.....honestly its about time she heard the truth....

"Yes Jewelle! I'm tired of you. I'm tired of this relationship. I'm not happy any more. I love you to death but you get on my last damn nerve and I can't take it any more. Maybe we just need space or something but I just need to be away from you. Admit it. We aren't like we used to be. Shit done got old. I'm tired of going through the same routine everyday!"

"wow..ok"

"oh so now you don't have shit to say? What happened to allat that loud talking and cussing??"

"I mean, you basically just said you don't want me any more.... what can I say? I'm lost for words. I never thought you'd actually not want me. I thought you loved me..."

"I clearly said I love you. But shit just not what it used to be Jew. I don't feel like I felt about you. You fuss, yell, and cuss everyday and its gotten old."

"I'm sorry Kai.."

"Ugh."

"What?"

"You apologizing makes me feel bad.."

"Don't worry about it, It's straight. I guess I need to find me somewhere else to stay...?"

"Naa, you good. I'll leave for a couple of days to get my head cleared away. Just gimme some time to think Jew. Maybe we can work on us or something but for now we just need time apart from each other."

"Well okay, where you gonna go?"

"I'm finna make a few phone calls now and work something out."

"You sure you don't wanna just fix things right now? We can talk... or whatever you wanna do. You don't have to leave. I won't fuss. I'll listen to how you feel. You don't have to sleep anywhere else... I don't want you too."

ugh.. I hate when she gets like this. I hate to have to see her tear up. I love her so much but this relationship isn't healthy. I really don't wanna leave but at the same time I know ain't shit really gone change if I stay. Things will be straight for a while then after a couple of days shit gone go right back to how it was. I can't keep doing this. I'm going to leave but only for a couple of days so we as a couple can see how it would be without each other. Show each other what we need from the other person instead of always fussing and shit with each other. I'm doing this for us and not just me.

"Jew do you really think things gone change over night? How I feel isn't gonna change like that."

"Kai ..."

"We just need time"

"We? Or you?"

".... What?"

"I don't feel the way you do. Yea you get on my nerve but damn Kai I still want you. I still want this! So what is it? Do you really not want me?"

"I don't know"