OURS

Chapter 19

*Kai's POV*

It's 3:26 in the morning and I have 108 unread texts from Jew. On top of the 79 missed calls from her as well.... agh! I can't even sleep to be honest. I fell asleep holding Mickey as we watched old 90s cartoons on Cartoon Geek. I can't help but trace her body with my hands as I hold her. She fits so perfectly on top of me. I don't even want to move because I really want to cherish this moment. I love the feeling of feeling wanted but I hate the fact that this is only temporary ..... shit sucks. I really don't know what I want to do.

*phone vibrates*

Of course it's Jew.... nobody else in their right mind would be texting me this early in the morning.

"Baby"
"Yes"
"Can you come home please? I'm sorry! I love you. I want you to come home. I need you to come home. Babe I promise I'll change and we can fix everything that's wrong between us. I just don't want you sleeping somewhere else with someone else."
"I'm on my way... I'll call you when I pull up."
"Okay!"

I don't know if Jew mean everything she saying but I really hope she try and put effort into it. Because I like Mickey but I really do love Jew. And before I leave the person I love for the person I like I wanna make sure that I tried as hard as I could to make the relationship work. I put everything into the relationship and want it to work so I'm not just gonna give up and throw it all away I'm gonna keep trying and give it time. But if nothing changes then Ima walk away. I'm going to leave and never look back. Hopefully Mickey will be waiting for me ... if not I think I can handle being single for a while.

My only problem now is getting up and leaving knowing damn well I want to cuddle some more. It just feels good knowing that Mickey really likes me and actually gives me the attention I want... but she's not my girlfriend and I have one so I need to make things right and try to fix my relationship.

I slide from underneath Mickey landing on the floor as quietly as I can. She just turns over facing the back of the couch mumbling something I can't even understand. I put on my shoes and grab my keys and head for the door.

"I hope everything works out with you and your girl Kai. Let me know how it goes."

I turn around to see Mickey sitting up, rubbing her eyes and stretching adjusting herself to look at me as I head for the door.

"I will. I'll text you when I get home."
"Okay be safe."

And just like that she laid back down and went back to sleep I left quietly walking out to the morning breeze. Man my life has got to be like some type of movie I swear to the man above ....

The whole ride home I been contemplating on telling Jew where I've been but I really don't even know how to tell her I've been at another females house. No matter how the hell I tell her she gone flip.

*calls Jew*

"Hello"
"Open the door"

I really don't feel like talking. Hopefully she just wants to go to sleep.... I would rather just sleep and cuddle pretending we're fine and happy instead of having the conversation I know we're eventually gonna have. Ugh ... God please just let her want to go to sleep.

I walk in the house and Jew literally won't let me go. I want to push her off me because I can barely breathe but I lowkey love how she acting right now.