Shadier's Box of Rants

I Always Wonder...

So, I'm in college, currently in my eighth semester. I'm so close to getting my bachelor's degree, which is obviously something I'm excited about because that means I can study abroad.

But still, even with being so close to finishing, I wonder:

Is this the right career for me?

Is what I chose to do for a living, what I actually like?

What if I'm doing this wrong?

The thing is, right after I graduated high school, I went to study engineering. Mechatronics.

I remember I was the only girl in my intro class, and even in my other classes, there were only a few girls.

I lasted one semester.

One.

I quit because I realized that, hey! I actually hate this! and trust me, telling my parents that I wanted to quit really scared me because all I could think was "Jesus Christ, they've wasted all this money on me, I feel so bad"

But thankfully they were fine with me quitting, they could tell engineering was not my thing and they were happy that I realized that on my own.

Fast forward 6 months and I got into another institute to study Product Design, which is the career I'm gonna be finishing next year. 

I do like it. Every class I've had (with a few exceptions) I've loved. I've learned so many new things and made amazing friends who took me out of my comfort zone. I've changed, and I like that.

Still, in the back of my mind, there's this feeling that this is not the career for me, that I should be doing something else, that I'm not going to make a living out of what I've studied.

It's annoying as hell.

Should I tell my parents? Should I just finish, graduate, get my bachelor's, and go study something else abroad?

Sigh, I really don't know what to do with my life. I'm 21, I know I still have time to figure things out.

But still, this damn imposter syndrome won't leave me alone.