Lost but wish to be found

'Soul mate'

I was always a shattered and lost soul, wandering here and there trying to seek comfort in someone but instead of getting a lending hand for help I was always obdurately pushed down to the pits of loneliness.
I still tried holding on to people that I thought were ‘close’ to me, the people that fooled me in to believing that they would be there for me but ended up turning their backs on me, I was so naive that I beaded myself a necklace of trust using their hollow words that they would stick around with me till the very end but how life brought me to a point where I got to witness the beads of that necklace break from the string and fall down on the ground getting scattered everyone and becoming beyond repair just like my soul and heart. 
I was left to suffer all on my own, my mind and heart had become like a lost man at sea, thriving to survive by desperately trying to find for a reason to live. That is when you came in to my world my ‘Soul mate’ in your eyes I found my peace and in your words I found my comfort and courage to keep moving forward. You came and you didn’t try to mend my cracks or to hide them, you came and you painted them golden, turned them into something that draws the light, instead of hiding it, you came and you showed me that there’s no shame in having a past, a failure, in pain, that all our dark parts can heal, that they can be turned into something beautiful if only we let the sunlight wash over them, if only we show them warmth, you came and you loved me whole.
I bother you a lot don’t I? I am sorry for all the times I acted up and hurt your heart, for every time you felt bad because of me and for every time I made you feel rueful, a person like you doesn’t deserve any of this rather you deserve all the happiness in this world. I wanna be a friend to you like you are to me. Your presence, your existence is a gift in disguise sent to me by God. You know I always ponder on this thought that God isn’t unjust, he always compensates for every wound and vacuum he places in your life and for me you are that compensation. After losing someone so close to me and watching the world turn its back on me my whole world turned stark and that is when you came and painted the canvas of my life with the bright colors of sincerity, love and loyalty, I’ll always be thankful for these colors.
Your existence means so much to me that sometimes, when I am not feeling good just the thought of your name lightens my mood. I just feel content that you are there to protect me, to save me, to accept me, to guard me from any harm that befalls in my way. You’re everything I know, the person who laughs with me over stupidest things, the person who hugs me when I am crestfallen, the person who wipes hot gloomy tears which fall from eyes and the person who listens to all my rants. I will always remember these cherishing moments spent with you in which we both laughed and cried together. I know you already know but I am gonna say this again that I will always be there for you, to lift you up when you will fall and will always pray for your endless happiness and success. I love you and will love you forever, no matter how far across the continent you are, a part of your soul will always be etched in me, you will always be my bestie, the doctor that would be having cure for all my pains and the bright star gleaming in my dark eternity.
In the end happy birthday my soul mate, keep on blooming like a flower. May these upcoming years bring loads and loads of happiness and success to your life and may that smile of yours never fade away.

I PURPLE YOU SOULMATE 💜