Lost but wish to be found

I told you so

I miss your warmth, warmth that brought ecstasy to my dreary life; I miss how just getting enveloped in to your embrace made me feel so protected, so sheltered and so confident. You had this incantation that made me forget all my worries, made me feel like the most elated girl in this whole world, you were like a cure to all my heart aches this merciless world gave me.

To say the least you were my happy pill

Along the way of losing you I have lost myself as well, you knew it coming didn’t you? You even warned me of the future you had foreseen, the future in which you and I had to unfortunately part ways.

Your warnings about the ruthless reality of this world still ring in my ears like a siren, your words that sketched the horrifying pictures of this world are still captured in my memory, it’s sad how I could never decipher what those daunting images meant. I was so naïve that I miserly failed to comprehend the lessons of life you wanted to convey to me, the precautions you wanted me to take,

Oh, how you were so right that I would finally get to learn them, I would finally understand them and in a very painful way by the hands of this obdurate world and by that time I will you won’t be by my side,

You won’t be there to hold my hand and walk me through the thorns placed in my way, you won’t be there to protect me from the stones thrown at me, I’ll bleed and instead of getting bandaged I’ll get pushed to the scabrous ground to suffer more.

I finally learnt it and I learnt it the hard way, please now just comeback even for a second, even just to say that I told you so