Lost but wish to be found

New fight

Sometimes I feel like I am strangling myself with your memories, my heart is constantly craving for you; I know I am stupid and also hopeless.

Sometimes I wish I could send a letter to heaven, my letter would harness one question 'Why did you love me?' I'll afterwards wait for the response and using your answer I might finally be able to love myself as well.

I am so flawed, I was always an outcast but you held on to me, I wanna hold on to myself as well.

I wanted to spend this life with you I hate being here without you, life is so meaningless, I am so worthless I have no reason to keep going forward, it's like it would be a better option to drown myself in your thoughts and slowly just fade away from this world.

I can't keep up with the pace of this world; I am tired I don't have the sagacity of going further. I feel like this world isn't for me, there isn't any place for me.

Every day is a new fight, every day is a new realization that nothing good would ever come to me.

I am just sitting in the corner watching and anticipating the walls of my hope to crack and fall down one by one.

I wanna scream to the world that 'I am not okay' but I know that my yelp would be nothing but a noise to everyone and once again I'll have to recoil myself into my shell of depression.