Party Scandal (bakudeku)

Chapter 12: Email

Izuku Pov:

Kacchan is having trouble with being close to me just last night I had to fight him for snuggles. I know that he feels guilty and torn up but he needs to get over it. I am better now, I forgave him, we have two beautiful babies, and he has everything he could want on a silver plater if he just takes it. I just don't understand why he is still trying to punish himself or me for that matter it's like he doesn't realize that when he refuses to be close to me it hurts me. I feel like that night was a mistake and that the reason he isn't close is because what happened would have never happened if he was sober, the congestion, the sex none of it would have happened. Right now is the morning of our 4 day vacation off classes due to the holiday and me and the babies are in my mom's living room playing on the floor. Kacchan is here too but he is keeping his distance by either doing chores around the house refusing my help or up in the room. I am trying to give him his space but after fighting so hard just to get him to hold me its like he is slowly slipping away. Did he change his mind and not want to be with me or the babies? Was last night too much and he hates me now? I take my attention to our son getting my thoughts off of Kacchan to see him crawl for the first time. KACCHAN!!! COME HERE!!! As soon as I yelled Kacchan dashed down the stairs to the living room. What is it are you and the babies ok? He said out of breath. Yes we are, LOOK!!! I pointed to our son who was currently crawling over his sister. Kacchan stared in awe then walked over to him picking him up then taking a seat on the ground I did the same and then Kacchan put our son in the middle we watched him crawl around for a while. Soon though I had to say something I know I was trying to let him have space and right now should be focused on our boy but I can't take it anymore. Umm...Kacchan? He looked up at me as I picked up the baby placing him on my lap. Yes, what is it Izu? I need to know something. He looked at me dead in the eye as I knew I had his full attention. what 's that? I know you said that I was still attractive to you but would you have had sex with me even if you warn't drunk or is the only way you would've touched me is under the influence? He seemed upset by my question as he looked hurt and taken aback. What the hell is with that all of a sudden? He was refusing to look at me. Kacchan you don't touch me or get close to me unless I beg you, you haven't been around unless the babies need you, you are avoiding me did I do something wrong? He started to laugh and tears fell from his sad eyes. Did you do something wrong Izu NO I DID AND BEING CLOSE TO YOU GETTING TO TOUCH YOU HELL EVEN BEING IN THE SAME ROOM AS YOU FEELS LIKE I AM BEING REWARDED FOR RAPPING YOU AT FIRST IT WASN'T THAT HARD BUT THEN YOU STOPPED ME FROM QUIETING THE FOOTBALL TEAM YOU STOPPED ME FROM TELLING THE FACULTY HELL IZU YOU LET ME SEE THE LIFE YOU WOULD HAVE STILL HAD IF I DIDN'T!!! I see so him watching the video and not being able to punish himself the way he originally wanted to drove him over. All I could say to him was only a few words, Kacchan do you love me? He looked up tears stand his beautiful face and his eyes were wide. Is that even a question Izuku? I have loved you since we were kids. That is another reason this is killing me. I love you so much.

Katsuki Pov:

I was upstairs getting together an email to send to the faculty. I was going to tell them about that night and finally get the punishment I deserve. The guilt and hate I have is eating me alive from the inside. I was going to tell them one way even if Izuku didn't want me to. Before I could click send I heard Izuku yell for me. KACCHAN!!! COME HERE!!! What the hell did something happen are the babies and Izuku ok? I rushed down the stairs to address what Izuku was yelling about. What is it are you and the babies ok? I asked as I was panting for breath he directed me to a scene on the floor in the center of the living room.Yes we are, LOOK!!! Our son was crawling for the first time, granted it was over his sister. I stared at the adoring sight. I knew our boy would be a fast learner but I can't have him crawl over his sister. I picked him up and placed him in the center of me and Izuku having him crawl back and forth between us. It was a nice sediment to have our boy crawl and his sister play with the playmate in quiet. Well that ended when Izuku looked up at me, Umm...Kacchan? I took my attention to him and he picked up our son placing him in his lap. Yes, what is it Izu? I need to know something, he states. what 's that? What he said next took me aback, I know you said that I was still attractive to you but would you have had sex with me even if you warn't drunk or is the only way you would've touched me is under the influence? What the hell is he trying to say that if I wasn't drunk I wouldn't touch him? Is this for real where is this even coming from the fact he asked that makes me upset knowing full well that even sober I would have sex with him. What the hell is with that all of a sudden? I addressed looking away not wanting to look at him. Kacchan you don't touch me or get close to me unless I beg you, you haven't been around unless the babies need you, you are avoiding me did I do something wrong? He confronts me so direct as if by me giving him space was bad and now he thinks that there is something his done wrong are you kidding me? I couldn't help but laugh and as I did tears fell down my face I had been dialing with this for a long time now and my mental stability is gone. I couldn't help what I said next, Did you do something wrong Izu NO I DID AND BEING CLOSE TO YOU GETTING TO TOUCH YOU HELL EVEN BEING IN THE SAME ROOM AS YOU FEELS LIKE I AM BEING REWARDED FOR RAPPING YOU AT FIRST IT WASN'T THAT HARD BUT THEN YOU STOPPED ME FROM QUIETING THE FOOTBALL TEAM YOU STOPPED ME FROM TELLING THE FACULTY HELL IZU YOU LET ME SEE THE LIFE YOU WOULD HAVE STILL HAD IF I DIDN'T!!! But then after some silence he asked me one last thing that made my heart sink to the pit of my stomach, Kacchan do you love me?Is that even a question Izuku? I have loved you since we were kids. That is another reason this is killing me. I love you so much. He smiled then lend over kissing me, I love you too so much please promise that once you forgive yourself you will start acting like yourself again and spend more time with me. I miss you. With that said he picked up the babies and went to his room to do his motherly thing and I walked back to the room as well. I went to the computer and sent the email. Izuku didn't notice and I was now starting to feel some sort of relief. I waited to get a response. It wasn't until right before bed that I got an email back from the principle stating he wants to discuss about it more in his office on Monday.