Shattered

Decision

Iwaizumi's words left a deep impression on Yuka. When Ukai dropped her off at her home and made her promise to never disappear like that she took out her laptop. She looked for apartments that were relatively close to Nekoma and which she could afford with the money her mother would sends her every month. After three day of searching she found an apartment that fit her requirements. She reached out the person that would rent it to her. After some discussing she would get the chance to check it out in a few weeks. Until then it would be reserved for her. Yuka thanked the owner and relaxed. 'Now I will have to tell the others I may be moving. Yuka got up and opened her laptop again. She started a video call with the entire group of people that had her back. Everyone picked up. To her surprise Noya was answering for Asahi. 'Yo Yuka, I guess something really has been going on if you call the biggest authorities in the team.' Noya says. 'It hasn't been easy these past two months no.' Yuka answers. 'Noya is Asahi there?' Daichi asks. 'Yes I am here. I had no idea you would call, I would have taken my phone with me if I did.' Asahi says sitting down next to Noya. 'It is okay. I am calling because I have been thinking about something.' Yuka says. 'Maybe we should fill Noya in first.' Daichi says. 'Right, Noya it comes down to this: I lost my father and sister and am on my own now. The rumors at school came to be because these five have been backing me up while I was hitting the ground.' the brunette runs down the events. 'You did seem pretty much out of it yeah, I am sorry for not trying to help out earlier.' Noya says. 'It is okay, what I have been thinking about is something Iwaizumi said a few days ago when I ended up at Seijoh after running away. He told me that maybe I should leave Miyagi and the painful memories behind. I gave it some serious thought and I figured that it may actually help. Right now I have temporarily reserved an apartment in Tokyo, it is 15 minutes away from Nekoma by train.' Yuka says. 'Are you not rushing things a little too much?' Takeda asks. 'I will go take a look at the apartment in a few weeks.' Yuka says. 'We may as well inform them now.' Ukai says. Takeda sighs. 'Nekomata sensei has invited us to join a trainings weekend with the Fukurodani group. It is a small cluster off Tokyo teams that play regular practice matches and they organize a training weekend every now and then.' Takeda says. 'It is really hard to get into such a group.' Suga says surprised. 'We really got invited, I never did anything like begging about it or something.' Takeda says knowing what Daichi would ask. All of them laughed about this. 'Saegusa make your decision after this weekend and seeing the apartment. We will have your back no matter what you choose.' Ukai says. 'Thank you very much.' Yuka says smiling. after some small talk they end the call.

coincidently the date of the training weekend matches with the date that Yuka would be able to check out the apartment. She decided that she would go and check it out on the last day so she had a chance to get to know the other teams first too. 'So now you decide to pick up your tasks as a manager?' Tsukishima sneers. Yuka just ignores him and sits down next to one of the windows. To her surprise Noya leaves Tanaka alone and sits down next to her. 'Noya you always sit with Tanaka.' Yuka says clearly surprised. 'Yes, but he has been ranting about you ditching practice a lot lately, he doesn't even try to understand some things are more important.' Noya answers. 'Please don't end your friendship with him because of me.' The brown-haired girl asks. 'I am not ending it because of you. I am ending it because he hasn't even tried to listen to a single thing I tried to say. Yuka, you still haven't written a word, have you?' Nishinoya suddenly asks. She looks at him with clear surprise. 'You were always so devoted to writing but now you never even have your notebook in your hand. That is how I realized something was seriously wrong. Tanaka doesn't listen when I try to point that out with a few other traits that have disappeared. If he doesn't want to listen, he can feel.' Noys says. 'Thanks.' Is all the girl can say. 'It is fine. 'Now we should rest since it will be quite a ride to Tokyo.' Noya says. Yuka agrees and the two doze off soon after the bus left.

After a full day of practice matches the managers prepare dinner. Yachi and Kiyoko don't really talk with Yuka and she can't blame them. She never warns them she will leave practice early or won't be there at all because she feels like she will have to admit why. The other teams their managers are trying to get to know Yuka tough. From the start the second year Karasuno manager hit it off really well with the two Fukurodani managers: Kaori and Yuki. 'I will take care of the dishes, you guys go and help out the boys with practice.' Yuka says when dinner is over. Kiyoko and Yachi immediately leave. 'Are you sure you don't need any help?' Kaori asks. 'I will be fine.' The brunette reassures her. 'Alright.' The other managers left her and Yuka finally was alone. She needed time to think. After preparing the water for the dishes she started washing them. She was deep in thought and didn't even notice Kenma sneaking in and starting to dry the dishes. 'Saegusa, why are you really taking on all this work by yourself?' He suddenly asks. Yuka looks up with a startled expression. 'Sorry I didn't notice you coming in. To answer your question, I wanted to think about some things without people immediately getting worried about me.' Yuka replies. Kenma's golden eyes meet Yuka's hazel eyes. 'I already noticed the friction between you and a part of your team, but there is more hurting you, isn't there?' he asks. 'Yes, there is.' Yuka answers. Akaashi came into the kitchen too and started putting the things Kenma dried away. 'I was worried too.' Is all Akaashi says. Yuka smiles a little sad. 'I am not ready to go into detail about this, but I lost two important people with a month in between them. I hit a rock bottom after I lost the second person, she was my partner in crime. The four teammates I do talk with in a normal way have been looking over me, the fourth one only joined the rest a few weeks ago, but he already understood things were not going well. Our coach and advisor are in on the looking after me too. The rest of the team hasn't looked past me missing practice or leaving early. I stopped writing notes for the stories I usually write because I completely stopped writing. I am smiling less and I am more with my head in the clouds. At school rumors started spreading, I am a succubus, after someone on the team, not fit to be a manager. Sadly only the ones having my back are protesting against these rumors. The rest of the team is just as bad.' Yuka says. By now they have finished the dishes and Yuka turns around to look at the two boys from the Tokyo teams. 'I am not such a person, nor will I ever be. I just need time to look after myself. If I were to keep living like I did before all this I would break.' she says tears visible in her eyes. 'Even Shouyo doesn't come up for you?' Kenma asks. Yuka slowly shakes her head. 'It are Daichi, Suga, Asahi and Noya who are watching over me.' Yuka answers. Kenma looks slightly hurt because his friend lets one off the managers get hurt this bad.