Pearls of the Heart

ALONE

I said to my friends "Hey there"
They didn't even realise I was there
They continued to talk among them
As if i never said 'Hi' to them
Or is it something wrong with me?
That they don't want to talk to me?

Why ignore me? Why leave me alone?
Why treat me as a statue of stone?
They don't care do they?
If they do, their actions certainly don't say
What do i look like to them all?
Someone who would tolerate this all?

That's it! I am not gonna cry anymore
All that crying, All that pain- no more
I don't care about them now
I've shut myself forever now
The walls have come up, not a crack  anywhere
There is no way to break them from anywhere

ENOUGH! i can't live like this
But, they didn't even care when i am like this
It is killing me from inside, weakening my walls
I am dying on the other side of the walls
Why should i live like this? Alone
Why can't i die and let my ghose haunt alone. 

I look at the Knife in my hands, making plans to die
I just have to cut my wrists, let the blood flow & i'll die
I slowly cut my wrists, Silent tears down my cheeks
I have been intending to do  this for weeks
My blood flowed freely out of my wrists
The place where the knife had cut my wrists

They opened the door, their faces left all the colour and blood
There in the kitchen was their friend, lying in a pool of blood
They dashed towards their friend , but their friend was no more
"Too much was blood was lost, there is nothing to do anymore"
The doctor had said, and now they were all crying
Holding their friend's ashes who died crying.

We really should never ever ever ever ignore someone, it gives them a feeling, there is no one left for them in this world. Enough IS ENOUGH. if you don't know how to make others not feel lonely, then better not make any friends. But don't toy with friendship. Friendship is a beautiful gift, not everyone has friends who would die for them, preserve your friends, dont lose them, cuz if you lose them once, you will never gain them again.  Tell your friends you're there,let them know they are not lonely  before it's too late

Let's say there are 5 people in a room and 2 of them are going against one person. The other two also decide to go against that one person, You know how that one person feels?
TERRIBLE
USELESS
and most of all UTTERLY ALONE!!!

Today, i vow, i will never make anyone feel like that. Right/wrong, idc i will always stand by that 1 person cuz trust me it kills that 1 person when they get targeted. It kills the humanity in them cuz they were never shown that. It kills their belief on friends cuz they never had a back up, they always stood ALONE.

In the end it leaves them  with that one feeling where they say, "It's alright, I am used to being alone anyways, It's not like anyone cares for me"

SO NEVER EVER MAKE ANYONE FEEL LIKE THAT

NEVER EVER

IT MAKES THE ALREADY DEAD PERSON WANT TO REALLY DIE

People make a person feel alone, make them a LONER and then they ask, "Why do you shut yourself away from us?" Well, what more should they do than  lock themselves and build walls around them if u make them feel unwanted, useless and utterly ALONE! 

I mean what's the point in being surrounded by 1000 people and yet have have not even one person by your side to wipe your tears away? Tell you everything is gonna be fine? Never make anyone feel like they are alone, it kills them, it really does and if you can't be there, it's just not in you personality to be supportive, then better not make friends at all. Betrayal makes one feel more alone. Not all injuries of the heart can be covered up with a smile nor all can be healed.