Ride or Die

The styrofoam cemetery rose from the horizon

One hit and you're high. From this mad disgusting and despising world to unbelievable fantastic one . Rainbow space and dreams connect in one web... And are you really believe me ? Sorry ,it's fuun. Well, here's what's going on as a matter of a fact...

I sheak a peek at the ceiling and it's becoming to floor and vise versa, the pictures on a wall are going to replace table. Our company of known and unknown fellas fall behind whirpool of neon lights . Everything doesn't and does matter instantly. I still sneak a peek but at Rue's hair now..because of shining . Soft sparkles from her hair make me heat and happy. While i spend my time on light's evolving all of us are beginning laughing for no reason and laying on a couches.

Couches are perceived so soft ...like no thing in the world would be so soft . While I'm falling on the sofa (it's around 5 seconds indeed but I feel like infinity) many pictures make my mind busy and freedom simultaneously. I saw Kiles face , so pretty and happy , but smile was strange ... Rue says me again and again fancy things however I can't ponder anyway . My smile was bigger and bigger and sometimes flows into the river and leaving behind waves flows again but into the ocean. I feel nothing but the best , I dream anything but the right , I know everything but for a little time..... I didn't notice how I have some kind of hallucinations. Maybe it begans when lights from the walls started flickering. I lay on my back don't feel bad and decide to get up . Strange things happened around me , grey green and white colors were colliding to show me the place finally. I saw only several gray boxes without any understanding . The single thought I had was "trying to touch its" and I did it . Yeah now I réalisé it's kind of styrofoam.. what? As Weird as possible . I thought before I exactly am aware where i am. Slowly getting up my head neck and back but legs staying on the ground . ( i sit) Cemetery . Oh my God ! All of tombstones are made of styrofoam, too lightweight .... I fold up and pull up my leg as I perceive that place I want to walk around my journey immediately replaced to road and after to amusement park . I become looking at all things but eyes don't work , I see lights again and it's so bright to make me fall on ground . Ouch! Now ground waves slowly and this movements remind me ocean waves again . Oh my God I'm in ocean !! I began swim and water seems really clear , i enjoy what next ? It's not possible but I see a dolphin. Cutie dark blue dolphin. I decide to be closer and maybe tend to swim with him . But he just attacks me , whale-dolphin bites me hardly and suddenly! I feel hurt . Now the pain spreads everywhere in my body ,allocates more and more , it's badly as fuck and it's the only thing wake me up . I wake up with scattered pain in my leg . Everyone just lay on the couches carrying me is I didn't see Rue . Where is she ? My head is dizzy ... what happened? Close eyes for a second ....

- Hello honey! *spinning me* What do you want to eat ? I cooked some pancakes... *spinning again but i have no reaction* Would you..

- No, thanks ,-i interrupt her giving small reaction ,- good mo mam . Honestly i would like to sleep all day but i guess...i promised to help Marissa today ?-i said into pillow and feel something was wrong.

-Ohh she will come to us! Its fine!

-...I want to answer but really say nothing because I'm scared of all moves from mom . I remember that day .. completely . She repeated every move I remind . She wore absolutely the same clothes and my telephone became sound similary too. Funny and scared like groundhogs day . And what I should do ? Ough.. I know I'll do everything inverse that day ! Hmm I need not to call Marissa and eat something. Carefully opening the door I hear nothing but smell pancakes , homemade sweet and likely pancakes . Okey , go on, i'll struggle against it ....Slowly stepping downstairs I'm also looking all around me and keeping an eye on food . Silence.

- Are you okey, Demi ? 

- MOM!, -I was startled and jump a little back . While I catch breath and become calm mom started her typically speech .

- I'm okey , you were so sharply and suddenly so I...

- Umm no , I stay near you I see you go down from your room.

- Anyway ... Where the sweetest pancakes in the world ?,- I tend to clear the air and be not suspicious as much as possible.

- Oh baby come on ! I hear these tasty ones is closer than you think ! Ummm there !!

- Yeaaayyy Demiii!! ,- my little sweetheart runs fastly to tightly hug me.

Sister if you read this - know I love you so much and also your words give me hope to life when clear me from fear . Huzza! Not a fucking groundhogs day !!

- Hi Maddie ! How your weekends?

- Nice!!! ,- adorable smile is glad me immediately!

- I'm truly so excited  to listen about all  !

And we're laughing and talking about everything. I'm so blessed to be with family now . This Maddie's smile, hugs and love. Mom's pancakes, talking and evenings. Hot chocоlate with marshmellows. Mornings, afternoons, nights. Songs, writings, melodies. Friends, hauses, shoots. Paparazzi, photos, videos. Tours, flyghts, concerts.  And everything is going to be normal, but whereas change. I move my sight from sis to mom. I'm fully aware that so many things turn up. But i admit my role and fault.