Ride or Die

It's too late for that, Father.

"Thank you guyssss!!!!!! I'm come back !!! Love u all ! " Crowd continues screaming Demi's name while singer slips past to small door on a stage . You don't know this scheme , it's about how faster you can rush to exit the place because many of fans really eat you without a border. Weird as f@ck. No. Scared as f@ck. The fire from stage and in hall becomes to cool down slowly and smoothly. But Demetria's heart is vise versa. "Only when I'm on stage I feel the most power in my arms and don't afraid of it ...yet . Only when I sing and move in my songs tact, and hear the crown opens their mouthes by my songs rhythm I feel enormous power. It seems like no one in the world can't stops me . Only when I'm on a stage. Im light to share with , I'm engine to pull. That why I hate leaving . I can't stand the moment I came to my room and understand the show off . This is transformation to inner me . Weak, poor , sick . Let's go ".*Knocking *

- five minutes please ! ,- "The unpleasant pain starts présure inside me. It's locating above abdomen and cutting without remorse. I need several seconds probably minutes to réalisé that wasn't pain.. that was hunger for drugs. I want it so much now . Don't care I get it anyway. "

- Demi !! We have to go right now !

 - "Fuck" ....wait a minute, I go..

"Holy crap ... where is it ...? Ohhh I won't go out while I'll find my need . Pull hand from jacket I finally find one of pills , crumble it to one track and with one breathe and move taste it immediately. Catch air , i ought to rush and get out of here , but one second for world was one infinity for me . I guess i thought about everything. All my obstacles emerge and remind who I am and who I was. Knocking next time make me awake in my room. Crazy how my memory works. I just dropped out every time and several hours later the parts of pst came to me. By the way I was able to drive home with my team , it's sometimes help me. The first concerts always the hard. When it's a habit you more sure , I really don't understand how I could work hard In the winter-spring half of the year. Films, tour, interviews. All I wanted now and then it's be the best version of me. How grateful nobody knows me in a state like that. Bulling lady  issues . Ufff . Awkward ! Too much better being teen who be in a first places in charts! Yeah."  Next puff. Eyes're rolling... thoughts are going away..

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Some days after.

- You're a bitch , you know? YOU ARE BITCH !!

Demetria screams on her mother with all aggression she has . But Diana was the strongest person with constant decision. The reason what's going on now you may guess. Long story short, Demi is still missing almost all meets with Maddie. If earlier it was due to tours and interviews and other stuff nowadays is because addictions. Too many nights lovato didn't come home, nevertheless when she decided to come home every time it was worse than previous ones. She was always drunk and unbalanced, with terribly intensions and movements. The time when she doesn't even try to hide this state is come . And on the edge .. demi give a last turning to see family but balance dissapears and she falls.

- stopit! Where are ou going!?

-...

- I'm asking you!

-Dont give a shit ma, like always , bye

- You couldn't come back anymore if you leave now! Demetria!

Door's closed.

"I do it . Yes I'm f@cking drunk go to fathers house . The fear due to see father in next hour covers my fear push somebody by my car. Really don't know how I could but I'm on my way and it's not too long yet ."