The Shadow Like Me

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It has come. The day I waited for. It was graduation day. Finally, we were graduated from university. I couldn't believed we did it though. After 4 years living through university life finally I got through and came to this point. At first I didn't believe this day really came, but with the toga in my head, it convinced me that I really graduated.

"Tim!! Timothy!!"

A familiar voice can be heard called my name.

"Happy graduation, Tim! You're the best!" said Vin.

"Ohhh thanks a ton Vin. You know I can't made it without you. Happy graduation too Vin! I really mean it"

We smiled and hugged. That ended one of the chapters in my life.

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At the same time, I had to- no, I must open new chapter of life no matter I'm ready or not. I am really happy at least for now because I knew, next day the "real life" is coming. It's adult's life with all of the drama in it.

After graduation, Vin and I had a small party together with our family. Vincent and I are best friend since we were high school students. Vin is a great friend. We spent time well at this our graduation party until midnight. We cleared things up and got back home. I took a rest in my bed reminiscing my memories in university and left an overthinking of my life.

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I opened my eyes knowing that morning has came. It's begin. Time to looked for a job. I hope I had good fortune for this.

Time flied.
One month has passed and yeah, I'm still jobless. I wasn't like Vin. Three weeks ago Vincent called me and told me he got a job. I was really happy to hear that for sure. Even we had a small party to celebrate it before maybe we couldn't met as often before since Vin had to work.
I was really happy that day for Vin, but I didn't what, there was unhappy feeling in my heart? Insecurity about my future.

That night Vin like had an ability to read my mind.

"Hey Tim, thank you so much for all this time. You really mean a lot. Please don't lose smile on your face. I'm sure success will come to you, I'm sure it will come. Please wait for that moment. Also, please remember that I will always here for you, cherish you!".

That words got my heart and cheered me up.

I continued looking for a job, applied at these and that job, hoping I could got accepted in one of them. But guess what?? It has been three months and I'm still jobless. I didn't making any progress. I didn't had any proper job. I thought I just a burden to my family.
What a fool I am. I was depressed. I felt strange and stupid. I mad to myself.

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The sun settled. It was dinner time. I went down to our dinner room with my family. Yes yes, I lived with my family after graduation.

"Hey son, so what's up? Have you got a job or nah?"

I was really scared and insecure heard those question from my dad. I'm kinda trembling.

"Ah emm dad. No, not yet dad. I haven't got a job".

My dad smiled at me. Huh, he didn't mad at me? I relieved.

I continued eating my dinner in my peace until.. my dad got up from his chair and hit the table with his hands loudly.
Woah my dad mad at me. Wow wow wow I'm scared..
He wasn't like this before...

My mom and I were really shocked.

"Son of a-!! arrrghh. You such a burden to us. Do you think you worth to live? Look at you!! You see!! Vin!! Vin already got a job! He's worked! A worker!! And you?? How about you?! Look at you! You such a fool!! Poor you! What a shame!!"