You cheat I cheat (ManxMan) {completed}

Episode sixteen

                      Noah's POV

Now all I feel is numbness. I still can't believe Elijah will do this to me, to us.
I forgave him the first time what more dI'd he want from me? I mean who the fuck cheats on their partner one year into their marriage and your partner catches you and forgives you and you still go ahead and cheat!

It beats me how he took me for a fool all this time, well it's not happening again! Not under my watch, at least not anymore!

I can't get passed the fact that I did everything for him, literally everything and he still doesn't find me enough. I can't divorce him either, it'll kill both of us. What happened when I told him that I wanted a divorce still plays in my mind every day. He almost died on me. I was so terrified I couldn't even mention divorce to him anymore.

I ignore him as much as I can but it's difficult when we live in the same house.
He thinks he's trying to win me back by doing all those things I needed from him from the start but I won't let that fool me anymore.

I went out to clubs, I did anything just to get passed that but I can't. I met a lady at a club the other day, she was pretty, she had everything I wanted in a woman when I wasn't with Elijah. Perfect curves, pretty face, those soft huge boobs.

We went to her house to get it on. When she touched me with her soft body all I wanted was Elijah's hard one on me, whenever she kissed me with her soft lips, I missed Elijah's firm ones on me. I literally day dreamed about Elijah the whole time I was with her.

Her walls were soft and stretchy but I missed Elijah's tight ass, the way he clenches around me when he came, the way he moans my name like a hymnal he was used to singing, those scratches on my back, the sensual kisses, the worships, the way he takes me, God! he was good in every way until he decided he didn't want me anymore cus I couldn't satisfy him enough. I accept that now.

All I see when I see him now is the way he thrusted into that boy, the way he was groaning without given a shit about our anniversary or our marriage and oh oh me!

I forgave him and he took me for a fool. Now he's gonna get the taste of his own medicine. He's gonna know how it felt like to be waiting at home for your husband to come and hold you but never does.

He's gonna feel the pain of sharing your partner with some slut and am gonna do it right in front of him to let him feel the kind of trauma I went through but still forgave him and he took me for a fool.

He's gonna get what's coming to him. It's the only way he'll learn. To know what it felt like When I saw him in his office doing that, the pain I felt when he told me it went on for one whole year when we were only married for two.

The pain I felt when I forgave him and yet he did it again! That was the worst pain of all. He didn't have respect for our marriage so why should I ?

I'm gonna watch him break slowly and feel all the pains he made my poor heart go through, that poor heart that was hopelessly in love with him and he stumbled upon into pieces.

I am so mad right now. Whenever I remember him I get so mad I wanna break something.

I searched for that guy he was with but i couldn't find him, apparently he was his ex! The ex that left him broken when I met him! The ex that up and left without a word! The ex that he was so infatuated with at that point.

When I met Elijah it was at a business meeting, I needed the assistance of his company by then. He was late for that meeting and I was so mad I almost left! I mean I couldn't believe I was doing his company good and he took it for a joke.

Then he walked in, he was so beautiful I couldn't move. I just stared at him for what seemed like forever until he cleared his throat. "I'm sorry we are late Mr Isaacs, won't happen again" Jude had said. If it was anyone else I would've left but seeing Elijah being part of them had me changing my mind in millisecond.

I looked at him throughout the entire meeting and so did. I let Lisa my secretary take care of business while I just stared at the beautiful being in front of my eyes. I didn't know what was wrong with me but I loved it. I realized he looked broken, his beautiful green eyes were lifeless and he looked so out of place.

We became friends afterwards and he told me how one Alexander had broken his heart, how he was so done with men and that broke my heart. I made it my mission since then to make him see the difference. That not all men were the same.

I was a player by then, fucked everything in skirt. But then I changed completely for him. I asked him out and he took a whole year to agree.

I never gave up on him. The way he looked broken, broke my heart, I just wanted to gather him in my arms and protect him forever. I didn't care how the love making went given the fact that I was only with women but I didn't care, I just wanted him happy, I just wanted to protect him.

My parents were so mad that I didn't want to marry the girl they chose for me. Tatiana was beautiful but there was just something about Elijah that drew me closer to him. They couldn't accept that and I just left to be with Elijah. I left Tatiana at the alter and it was the last straw for them.

Elijah and I dated for 2 years and we got married. But I told him when he proposed that I didn't want him to regret his decision! And yet he did. I'm not granting a divorce in anyway possible, I just want him to feel pain the pain I went through.

It's time for a taste of your own medicine Elijah Moore, I hope you are prepared.