You cheat I cheat (ManxMan) {completed}

Episode eight

I was still every woman's dream and I'm not even being cocky and I know that because of all the eye fucks I get wherever I went, from both men and women but I chose Elijah. He is the love of my life. He is my whole world and more.

Even after what I saw I still yearn for him to be close to me. I crave that beautiful body on mine right now. I crave those eyes watching me. Those sinful lips kissing me like he does. Crave the way he caresses my body softly. Crave the way he strokes my skin erotically.

God am going crazy! I sighed frustratedly and tug on my hair painfully hard but I didn't feel a thing. It was only with him that I felt something. It's only when he touches me that I feel am human again.

Only him keeps me sane. I can't loose him and I won't. Not to anyone born of a woman or man. Elijah is mine and only mine and I'll make sure he realizes that.
No matter what it takes.

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I was so lost in thoughts when I heard my phone ringing in my pocket it startled me.
I took out the phone and checked the caller and it was Elijah. My heart beat picked up. What's he calling to say? To mock me with more lies? I didn't feel like answering it but I did anyway.

I cleared my throat and answered with a hoarse voice. "hello?"

"Hi baby, I got the roses, thanks you baby and happy anniversary to us." He said with a strained voice from the other side with his voice laced with so much guilt and I wanted to cry.

I sniffed "Yeah, please be home by 9, I have a surprise for you"

"Baby are you crying, do you have a flu or something? Is that why you are sniffing?, why does it sound like you are crying?" He asked with confusion in his voice, wow he was actually good with pretending.

"I'm not crying Elijah, I guess am just really overwhelmed with so much emotion, you know today being our second anniversary and all, am happy that we are growing and that there's no secrets between us" I lied.

"Yes we are growing and stronger too my king and there's no secrets, never will be. I'll be home early to comfort you my love, be safe and I love you, I gotto go baby I'll see you later. bye!" He rambled out and hanged up quickly I thought I heard him sniffing. And that even broke my heart the more. He could actually lie to me like this? No secrets? Really?

I shook my head, everything just felt too heavy to take in.

Okay enough of this bullshit and self pitying shit. I'm gonna go home and celebrate my anniversary with my husband and do better so I can get him back to being mine and only mine. I don't know how to go about this though. Do I pretend all is well or should I confront him?

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I drove home and made sure to wipe all my tears and be stronger. Recomposed myself. I'll just try and have fun tonight.
I headed to the mansion and everything was just perfectly ready for our anniversary dinner party. Everything was perfect for a used to be perfect marriage.

Oh Elijah why did you do this to us.

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Everyone was here, all our close friends and families ready to surprise him. His best friend Jude including.

But he was late again. I tried calling him countless times but he wouldn't answer.
I was so worried.

It got too late for dinner. And they all left our home for theirs except his best friend Jude. From what I know Jude and Elijah were childhood friends. He saw how worried I looked and decided to stick with me to wait for Elijah.

It's not the first time he's come home late so it wasn't even a big deal but what was a big deal was that today was about him and I. The most important day of our lives and he does this!

Not only did he sleep with some other person either than me on our special day but didn't show up for a surprise I had for him. I even told him for God's sake! it wouldn't have been a surprise if I hadn't seen what I saw. We would've been home together and helped Mariah with the preparation, but it seems Mariah had help anyway. 

I was lost in thought sitting on a couch in the living room at 12 am waiting for my husband to come home to me. My eyes spaced out. It hurts so much I don't know what to feel anymore. I mean couldn't he spare us today?

Someone cleared their throat and I looked up, it was Jude.

"Something is just not right with you, something is just not right in this marriage anymore, I just know something is wrong, I just can't put my finger on it." Please don't put your finger on it at least not yet.

"Everything is fine Jude why would you say that" I gave a fake smile.

"Cause you are sitting here and Elijah isn't home, and you are relaxed about it as if it was perfectly normal" he said looking at me curiously.

"It's nothing" I said with a sloppy smile trying to fight back tears, I wasn't going to disclose my marital issue just yet.

He had more to say but there was no more room for argument especially not about this and not now. Just then I heard the front door to the house opened and he entered looking so disrupt and unkept. God!

Jude was quick to get to him before I did cause I was slacking, I didn't know if I should just keep acting as if everything was normal or just ask him already. It was kinda awkward I didn't know how to act around him right now.

"Where the fuck have you been, we've been worried sick over your stupid ass"

Jude asked him and I winced at him calling him names but I couldn't react. I just stood there and watch with my eyes blurry with tears.

"Just please take it easy with the insult, would you?" I told him.

"No let him answer me, you set up all these things just to celebrate your marriage and yet he did this."

Elijah couldn't talk, his eyes were lowered looking hard at the floor. He looked so ashamed of himself with guilt dancing in his gorgeous eyes.

Jude pointed his index finger with his middle finger against Elijah's chest like a gun and and seethed,

" the Elijah I know would be dying to be home with his husband on normal days thoughtless of their anniversary! But you? I don't even know you anymore. But there's one thing I can tell you, get your shit together or you'll lose a perfectly good man before you realize your stupidity. I'm outta here"

And with that he was gone. Leaving me and Elijah standing in an awkward silence.