You cheat I cheat (ManxMan) {completed}

Episode nineteen

                           Noah's POV

So here I am wallowing in my own misery and there's someone ringing the fucking door bell and they won't go away!

I couldn't get a wink of sleep last night. All I could see was how my husband held unto his chest and his request, the way he said he loved me, the way he cried. Everything haunted me till this morning.

Where the fuck is Mariah to open the fucking door and it's so fùcking early too.
I guess Elijah didn't feel like opening the damn door either. Speaking of, is he even home?

I stood up gloomily and made my way downstairs. I looked through the door viewer and saw who it was.

Jude!

"Ugh go away Jude, don't you have your own home" I said irritated.

"Open the damn door right now or I'm breaking it down." He answered from the other said.

I rolled my eyes and opened the door. He looked pissed!

"Ugh what pooped in your cereal this morning to have your face screwed up like this?"
I mocked clearly not interested. All I wanted to do was crawl into bed and sleep.

"Oh cut it with the bullshit! What were you thinking having sex in your matrimonial home with another person?" He hissed.

Well how did he find that out?!

"Awwe did baby come crawling to mama to fix his home issues?" I mocked.

"He didn't tell me anything, I was on the phone with him when everything transpired. How could you do this to him, I thought you loved him?"

"Correction, he brought it upon himself."

"How do you sleep at night knowing you hurt the one person who loves you?" He dared to ask.

"I sleep naked with my butt stuck in the air incase you wanna kiss my French ass" I sassed.

He gasped. "Noah what turned you into this monster, why are you behaving this way. Did Elijah do something to hurt you for you to be acting like this?"

"That Noah is dead and gone! you weren't there for me like this when he cheated on me for a fùcking year so don't you dare come and interfere in my fùcking marriage!" I hissed back! I was livid he accused me like this.

"Whattttt?!, he did what?!" His eyes wide with shock.

"See? I didn't crawl to my mama when I was going through hell, when I needed someone to talk to, someone to make me feel better, I did it by myself so don't come here and judge me"

"I'm sorry I didn't know, but the last time I saw Elijah he was not in good shape at all, it's killing him but he wouldn't tell me what's wrong. I guess I now know why." He said to me angrily and I rolled my eyes.

"Well I don't care, it's killing all of us, and we shall all suffer it quietly"

"This is too toxic, at the rate you both are punishing each other is not healthy. If you don't want him anymore why not divorce him."

He questions with furrowed brows and I lost it. He can't tell me what to do in my own damn house and my own damn life!

"Listen and listen very good, he cheats, I cheat end of story and nobody and I mean none of us is going to file for a divorce. We are stuck together!" I said dangerously. I can be scary when I want to be and I do not want that part of me out on the surface.

"I want him to feel all the pains I felt when he wasn't there to hold me at night, the pain I felt when I had to eat alone, the pain I felt when I needed him the most and he wasn't there, what I felt when I walked in on him balls deep in his ex, what I felt when I learnt it had been going on for one year and I forgave him hoping he'll change but he didn't, what I felt when he went into that hotel room to screw him again! I'll never forgive Elijah for doing that to me, to us , to our marriage! The kinda pain I felt when I threw him a party on our anniversary night and he didn't show up instead he was balls deep in that fuckers ass! He screwed up Jude and I wish I could hate him but I can't I still love him so much but when I see him I see betrayal and I want him to feel every agonizing minute of what I felt."

With that I turned and left not missing the tears in Jude's eyes. Apparently he thought I was the asshole screwing people in my home. He thought it was a choice!
Fuck! I really wish I could hate Elijah but I can't. And I fùcking hate myself for that.

"Alexander Civil if I get my hands on you you are so dead you motherfûcker!" I heard Jude scream in frustration.

But before I could get to my room, I saw Elijah standing there with tears in his eyes, he looked so sad and terrible, his eyes had dark circles, his hair disheveled and messily pointing in every direction, but still he looked perfect and I hated it.

He clearly heard everything and the look on his face has my poor heart suffering all over again! I gave him a deep scowl and snarled before I disappeared into my room and banged the door.

I feel so mad I can kill someone if the person dared me!

"I want my Noah back he says! Didn't think about that before screwing that piece of shit! You get your Noah back when you go back in time and wipe that filth of yourself. Your Noah my ass" I mumbled angrily and shut my eyes tightly to sleep by force.

I felt something wet licking my face and it startled me, I opened my eyes quickly jumping up until I realized it was just the puppy.

Ewww he licked me am sure I got rabies now!

The more I scooted back the more he came closer to me. I reached slowly and softly rubbed his head, his fur was so soft and he purred while leaning further into my touch. He was so cute I couldn't refrain myself anymore, to hell with rabies. I took him into my arms slowly and cuddled into him and drifted into a mindless sleep.