You cheat I cheat (ManxMan) {completed}

Episode Ten

Elijah's POV.

I can't believe I hurt him, the one person in this entire world that I wanted to protect from hurt and I hurt him the most.

Fuck me!

I can't have him leave me, I'll die. There's no way I can survive without Noah by my side. He keeps me normal and grounded.
I can't live without him, I love him too much. I'll self-disrupt the next minute after he leaves.

How did he even find this out. I just can't believe I hurt him like this, he said he's gonna divorce me! I can't have that! I can't stand him leaving me for someone else. Giving that gorgeous body to someone else. That'll mean I lost my most prized possession.

If only I had thought of all these when my body was behaving like a man whore. I'm so ashamed of myself that I couldn't resist such temptation and having hurt the one person I love the most like this. It felt so painful when I saw tears in his eyes. He's never had a reason to cry and yet I did that.

He's my everything, my entire world revolves around Noah and only him. I can't let him leave me. I won't. The look in his eyes when he looked at me tonight had my heart breaking all over again.
Tomorrow that son of bitch Alec is gonna get it so hard he's gonna wish death upon himself.

I've never seen Noah like this before. He was so mad! And it's all my fùcking fault!

I gathered all of my courage and headed to our bedroom. He was laying on his side of the bed waiting for me.

I got in bed laying there frigidly. I couldn't move I was too scared to be kicked out of the room. No matter what I did I couldn't sleep without Noah laying by my side. I could afford not being able to touch him but I can't afford not having him lay by my side.

"I love you Elijah. Always remember that" he mumbled and turned around with his back against me. Well fùck I messed up that bad.

But one thing about Noah, he never forgets to let me know he loves me.

Even when I didn't come home early. He wakes up in the middle of night. Pecks my cheek and whispers 'I love you' in my ears every night. Thinking I didn't hear him or notice. I always did but I pretend not to.

"I love you so much more Noah, always and forever. And I'm sorry I hurt you Baby" I whispered back. Before sleep consumed me.

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I woke up to an empty bed, no Noah and it felt weird. He was always here whenever I woke up.

I dragged myself to the bathroom and looked myself in the mirror. I looked horrible but I didn't care. I just needed to win my husband back and I will. Starting by removing that unhealthy lust from my life.

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I got to my office and the demon was sitting in my chair gracefully. I just wanted to strangle him till death. He caused this. It's because of him that my husband cried for the first time ever since I've known him and it was all my fault.

"What the actual fùck are you doing in my Office Alec? Haven't you done enough?" I gritted out.

"Oh come on Jay, we've been passed this hostility. Is this how you talk to me after our night of passion?" he asked feigning hurt.

"There was nothing passionate about that at all, all there, was lust which caused me the trust of my husband. Because of you my husband was hurt! He fucking cried because of you! I hate you for that particular reason. Now if you don't mind get out!" I hissed.