I'm not the one, your highness

6. The queens last wishes

"LOUIS. LOUIS WAKE UP. LOUIS" Louis heard as someone shook him, he pushed the person away and pulled his covers over his head "OH FOR GOD SAKE LOUIS WAKE UP"

Louis sat up and saw his sister on her knees crying, he immediately got off his bed and rushed to hug her

"Charlotte" he whispers and hugged her tighter when she cried louder, he realised that the moon was still down and his sister was still in her nightgown

"S-she's gone" she cried out, and Louis just held her. He kissed her head and whispered that everything will be alright in her ear, he wasn't going to allow his tears out until she was back in her bed

The medic opened Louis' bedroom door and when the medic bowed his head with a few sad tears in his eyes. Everyone loved the queen, she treated everyone as an equal.

But.... now she's gone

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He held his father up, he held his siblings up. But he couldn't help but crumble like a soft biscuit when he's alone. He couldn't help but wish it was him, he couldn't help but wish death wasn't permanent

He'd crawl on the floor and hug his knees tightly and let all of his tears out

For hours, but as soon as the sun should shine, he'd get up and act like he was fine

"Your highness" Louis heard as he looked out the window, he sighed and rubbed his temple

"Ms. Cowell I'd honestly like to be alone right now"

"But it's important your highness-"

"As much as I'd love to listen" Louis said sarcastically "I honestly would like to be alone"

"Y-yes your highness" she said before closing his door and walking away

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After the queen's burial, Louis' still face became the face that everyone knew, breakfast jokes were non-existent. He was by his fathers side all the time, making sure that the king is alright

Today was the 5th day after her burial and he heard a soft knock at his door, he walked towards it and opened it to be greeted by the green eyes he loves, cocoa like curls he loves but the dimples were missing

Louis grabbed Harry by his arm and pulled him into his room before slamming the door shut and locking it

He pinned Harry against the wall and kissed him, Harry was shocked but kissed back, Louis pulled Harry closer as if he wanted them to merge together

"I thought I told you, you don't need to knock on my door" Louis whispered and opened his eyes to see Harry's eyes still closed but his cheeks tinted pink

"I-I.. uhh..... umm"

"Calm down love" Louis whispered and kisses Harry's forehead keeping his lips there for a moment

"The servants said that you've been a ticking time bomb... you know I'm not a fan of being yelled at.. so I decided it's best that I knock"

"But you know you'll always have a soft spot in my heart right"

"Your mum... the queen just died Louis, your heart is broken"

"Yeah... yeah it is" Louis said then stopped back and allowed Harry to fix his clothes and his hair

"Now answer me honestly" Harry said, crossing his arms and Louis hummed and sat on his bed "how are you feeling?"

Here's the thing about Louis, he wouldn't cry in front of everyone, he wouldn't shed a tear in front of anyone...