Blood and Brushes(shinkami)

It's You not Yū

Kami Pov))

Oh shit. Am I a simp for Shinso? I mean maybe? I did get hard thinking about him. So probably?

"Yes Shinso. I'm a simp for you now." He smirks.

"Good." I huff and give him his phone back. Thunder shakes the building and I jump into his arms again.

"I hate thunder." I groan and let my head fall into his shoulder. He wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me closer. This is really nice. Being pressed up against someone else. And now that I know he doesn't have ill intent I'm even more happy. I shudder as he squeezes me once. "Can I tell you something?"

"Of course."

"I used to have an abusive ex." He rests his head on mine.

"I'm really sorry Kami. Whatever they did you didn't deserve it." I shrug.

Tw/ sexual assault/ manipulation /blood\ gore/knives/cutting

"She was really good at manipulating me into believing I did. Her name is Jade. I dated her for 2 years. High school me just wanted to flaunt I had a girlfriend so I asked the first person who even slightly liked me. For the first 2 months she was perfect. Then when I went out with some friends without telling her she kicked me down her stairs. She made me make a public apology. She told me if I told anyone she'd hurt my family. the thing was, she could. She was sick and twisted. The abuse only got worse from there. I thought it was the at the peak about a year into it but I was so wrong. The night of Homecoming she drugged me and forced me to have sex with her." I feel tears come to my eyes. "And it's always down played or dismissed because 'I'm a guy' so 'it can't happen to me' or im 'supposed to enjoy it'. But I hated it." I feel the tears come out and Shinso thread his hand in mine.

"You're emotions are valid. Rape is rape. No matter who does it to who." I nod and wipe my eyes.

"Thanks. But there's sadly more. When I tried to tell someone what happened she somehow found out. Then she," I pause as thunder makes its way again. "Then she took a knife to my wrists." Shinso takes in a sharp breath. "I was hospitalized for 2 weeks and I still refused to tell anyone what happened. I finally broke up with her at school so she didn't do anything. Then the weekend of that we moved. And I haven't seen her since sophomore year. Thank god." Shinso hugs me a little tighter.

"Denki I'm so so so sorry that you had to go through that." I smile lightly.

"I'm okay now. Sometimes a smell will trigger something but it's rare."

"It's okay to not be fine sometimes Kami."

"I know that. But I'm genuinely okay now. I just felt like you should know. I feel safe around you."

"I'm glad you feel that way. I feel safe around you to." I smile wider and pull him into a hug.

"Thanks Shin." He shoves his head in my shoulder. God this feels nice. Damnit. Don't let your stupid gay thoughts get in the way. But he's just so nice to hug. I pull him a little closer and take a deep breath.

"Thank you for trusting people. A lot of people don't."

"I took the time to know you. Most people don't. They don't get to see just how amazing you are."

The conversation got back to other hobbies and talents. I found out Shinso also gets commissions for tattoos so he's an artist. Which by the way, that's really fucking hot. And I also found out he played 3 sports in high school. Wrestling, football, and basketball. Apparently all around the same time to. He was apparently quiet popular along with Momoma. Pull everyone if he wanted to. He also found out a lot about me. I used to do baseball, and mostly took honors courses. A lot of people didn't know that about me. I just lack common sense sometimes but I'm book smart. I also absolutely love pottery. Even have my own room just to make shit back home. Also told him about my embarrassing emo phase which we do NOT talk about. Of course he teased me for it. Little shit. I got him to open up about his natural hair color, dark brown.